REPLY from Chuck
I just find it amazing that someone can slander someone's name, call them a
stalker and say to everyone reading that he is a danger to you and your
family and lie about things in some ways, but I'm not allowed to defend
myself at all! I'm NOT defending my actions for one. I'm just trying to
explain what happened and tell my side!! But I guess if I do that, I'm
making it "all about me"
gotsome, in answer to your question, the email's and pm's having nothing to
do with my PTSD or anxiety disorder. but as far as those go it was not as
bad as it was being made out to be. I recently simply responded to her
accusing me in the advertising section of deleting her pics from my (or now
her's if she wants it) photobucket account. I don't know what happened but I
ve fixed it and the pics that I took of her(with her cam) and uploaded to
the account so she could post them for you guys to enjoy are now back in
place. (you know what stalkers normally do) I simply told her to please take
the account and do with it as she will and gave her the password as she isn
t going to deal with me anymore. And to please change the password so as to
not be able to falsely accuse me of anything here on perb. I didn't delete
anything, all I've done with that account is try to help..that's all. some
of the emails etc dealt with stuff like that. But I simply have a bad habit
of sending too many. Ask Fred z..when I was mod I continuously forgot things
and resent emails etc because of it. Annoying yes!! makes me a STALKER ..NO
WAY!!! She never complained about content, just the amount as has been
mentioned before.
I'm not going to go back and forth about 5yrs ago as it is now he said she
said and we could argue on forever and there would be no point. I know that
what I said was the truth and that's good enough for me!
My PTSD and anxiety disorder if you read the thread that fz posted for me
goes to my mind set and motivation for my other actions. NO not an excuse
but just an explanation to alleviate, hopefully, any worry that Iam a threat
to anyone , especially Eden or her family. As that is just obsurd!! Algain,
why is it ok for her to accuse me of that and not ok for me to say anything
in my defence?!
I'm not following her nor do I have a desire to. Yes I'd hoped to repair the
friendship but obviously that is not going to happen. I also do not like
people lying about me here as I don't think any of you would like it either
if it were being done to you!!
I just wanted a chance to say my side and I've had that. Again, I can only
apologize to Eden for the grief caused and try and move on with things. I
don't want anything from you Eden, other than for you to stop making any
false accusations about me here or anywhere else. Because I do have the
right to speak up for myself even if you seem to think that I'm not allowed
that!! You have no worries about being followed or your freedom being taken
away. If that is what you think then you don't know me as well as you kept
saying you did.
I made a BIG MISTAKE by going to your apt that day and also the the things
that happened 5yrs ago. I was truly thinking that I was reaching out to a
friend for help. I never used to do that before. But as things got worse I
just feel I have to think of myself sometimes or I may not be around any
more. I'm not trying to be dramatic or anything else. I thought you would
understand as you seem to understand me better than anyone but I guess I
looked for help in the wrong place. If I have feelings such as that and i
tell someone, I'm just wanting attention, if I don't tell someone then I may
not be here. Unfortunately, I've seen too many times the results of people
who just wanted attention and their families, crying over them at their
funeral, saying why didn't I pay any. I just don't want to be one of those
and I fight with that EVERY DAY!!! I'm sorry if you don't believe me but
that is the plain truth. I don't tell anyone at a hospital etc as they can
be very cold and unfeeling and it just makes it worse and I find myself
telling them what they want to hear just so I can leave. I needed someone
who really cared and I thought that was you. I'm SORRY for involving you
when you didn't want to be that kind of a friend!
Yes it is your body and soul and everything else!! I'm not trying to take
anything away from you and am sorry if that is how I'm making you feel. All
I ask is for you to not make any accusations that will make me want to
respond. Coming out "to play with your perb friends" is just a waste of time
as they and you have already made up your mind about me no matter what I say
And people who have not met me should not judge me at all.
Wether you believe me or not I do wish you well and hope we can just both
move on from here on out!
Thank you again Fred for the oppurtunity to respond!
Chuck
