First off, this is not an attempt at getting cheap/cheaper services- as I said in my reviews, I think attempting to talk the price down is rude and in many ways, distasteful- yeah, and me a Chinese...it's a disgrace I know! I don't really know if there's even a point here- just something that kicks around in my head and, well you know, it's not like I can talk about this hobby with my real life pals or...god forbid, my gf...so here goes:
As far as the pooning crowd goes, I probably rank down there with the more poverty strikken margin- those ladies who's met me have seen first hand my situations, so I am not going to go into details for privacy reason. Suffice to say, despite holding down three jobs, and for the most part, happy with my lot in life, I am, as a "good" friend once so bluntly pointed out, "living constantly on the verge of being homeless."
About 12/13 years ago, when I first stepped into the pooning scene, still young, wild, and full of ideas, I remember I had this one outcall experience where, the lady whom I had a date with, pulled into the driveway of my rented basement suite in her spanking new Mercedes. I almost was too ashamed to open the door for her.
Ever since then, I've noticed this little but vicious voice that constantly biting at me in the darkest corner of my mind whenever I find a SP that's living in some big expensive house, or renting some $3000 apartment in the high end part of town- and this voice says, "You are not worthy, you are a little boy trying to play in a game meant for big people. Why are you spending money on these ladies when they are already 10 times richer than you are?"
I don't know if anyone else feel this way, but the fact is, I've never even bought anything more expensive than a good computer in my adult life. I think the most money I've been able to shelled out in my adult life was when I had to purchase a $10,000 piece of technology for work/school purposes, and that almost did me in lol. When I spend $200 a hour to visit a lady, that's the money that could put food on the table for me for 2 weeks- but to her who drove that Mercedes, man, her shoes probably cost more than that...
Maybe I'm just not for this hobby? Maybe people like me should just...spend our money on food and shelter and put our "fate" in our "hands?" I don't know...it's a question I been wrestling with on and off. This, and other issues, had prompted me to retire from the pooning hobby 12 years, and who knows, may do so again soon... Not looking for price reduction, not looking for sympathy, but more curious on if anyone else's wrestled with the same issue before, have decided to step out because of it, or any other "poor man's tales" that run along the same line. We've all seen great high end reviews of high end providers by some, seemingly super rich people who can spend $800+ on a date and don't lose any sleep over it. I enjoy those reviews, I envy their lifestyle and admire their class, but I am also interested to hear/see things from "my side" of the street.
And for the ladies, any encouraging words for the poor church mice crowd? Have you ever felt bad taking a client's money when you realized that you were alot better off than they were?
There are some very very special ladies who make them selves affordable to the lower bracket folk even when they are so well known and provide such good services that they totally didn't have to stay in this bracket where, admittedly, some very lousy specimens of human kind lurk. For that, I salute you all- and a special shout out to Surrey Jewel for she is a great example of that.
Comments? thoughts? Lets hear it... But don't flame me, I spook easily and when I'm spooked, I hit back...hard.
lol
As far as the pooning crowd goes, I probably rank down there with the more poverty strikken margin- those ladies who's met me have seen first hand my situations, so I am not going to go into details for privacy reason. Suffice to say, despite holding down three jobs, and for the most part, happy with my lot in life, I am, as a "good" friend once so bluntly pointed out, "living constantly on the verge of being homeless."
About 12/13 years ago, when I first stepped into the pooning scene, still young, wild, and full of ideas, I remember I had this one outcall experience where, the lady whom I had a date with, pulled into the driveway of my rented basement suite in her spanking new Mercedes. I almost was too ashamed to open the door for her.
Ever since then, I've noticed this little but vicious voice that constantly biting at me in the darkest corner of my mind whenever I find a SP that's living in some big expensive house, or renting some $3000 apartment in the high end part of town- and this voice says, "You are not worthy, you are a little boy trying to play in a game meant for big people. Why are you spending money on these ladies when they are already 10 times richer than you are?"
I don't know if anyone else feel this way, but the fact is, I've never even bought anything more expensive than a good computer in my adult life. I think the most money I've been able to shelled out in my adult life was when I had to purchase a $10,000 piece of technology for work/school purposes, and that almost did me in lol. When I spend $200 a hour to visit a lady, that's the money that could put food on the table for me for 2 weeks- but to her who drove that Mercedes, man, her shoes probably cost more than that...
Maybe I'm just not for this hobby? Maybe people like me should just...spend our money on food and shelter and put our "fate" in our "hands?" I don't know...it's a question I been wrestling with on and off. This, and other issues, had prompted me to retire from the pooning hobby 12 years, and who knows, may do so again soon... Not looking for price reduction, not looking for sympathy, but more curious on if anyone else's wrestled with the same issue before, have decided to step out because of it, or any other "poor man's tales" that run along the same line. We've all seen great high end reviews of high end providers by some, seemingly super rich people who can spend $800+ on a date and don't lose any sleep over it. I enjoy those reviews, I envy their lifestyle and admire their class, but I am also interested to hear/see things from "my side" of the street.
And for the ladies, any encouraging words for the poor church mice crowd? Have you ever felt bad taking a client's money when you realized that you were alot better off than they were?
There are some very very special ladies who make them selves affordable to the lower bracket folk even when they are so well known and provide such good services that they totally didn't have to stay in this bracket where, admittedly, some very lousy specimens of human kind lurk. For that, I salute you all- and a special shout out to Surrey Jewel for she is a great example of that.
Comments? thoughts? Lets hear it... But don't flame me, I spook easily and when I'm spooked, I hit back...hard.
lol
