You make far too many assumptions about my "past"
Terrell said:
I think in your situation it comes down to respect. The men in your life do not respect you because of your pass.
Excuse me? My ex common-law was the only man who ever knew about me being an escort because the sum total of my escorting career then was for the two months before I met him—it was
how I met him. Then I left the business to be with him until recently.
So don't talk to me about me having a "past." I don't have a lifetime career in this industry, nor am I planning to have one in the future.
And what right did he have to judge and disrespect me? He was a john and had seen many escorts for many years before he ever met me. You might say that he had a lifetime career as a john. So who was less worthy of respect?
When I first began working as an escort, I had just been laid off from a good job and had a family to support. I was desperate and saw an ad in the classifieds, where I looked every day for a job, "escorts wanted, no experience necessary," and I had no experience. And to my surprise, I actually enjoyed escorting.
I was meeting people and helping them to feel better about themselves—that's the way I looked at it. Some of the least attractive and even most obese clients were the most fun to talk to, and the oldest men were the most polite and genteel. I liked putting the shy ones, who had never seen an escort before, at ease. I felt that what I was doing was important and that it wasn't fair that some men had to pay for affection because people are so quick to judge with their eyes.
I've never felt degraded by what I do when I'm with my clients and they never make me feel that way. They appreciate me. Do I imagine that? I honestly don't think so. If you do, then you must be a very unappreciative client who really doesn't
need the services of an escort the way some men do, in which case, you've projected the attitude you've displayed here onto my clients, and I don't appreciate you doing that. They're good men who, aside from the usual, use services like mine for meaningful reasons, like therapy to assist in their recovery from prostate cancer. And in many ways I consider what I do to be a form of therapy.
I can assure you, my clients are better men than you—at least in terms of attitude.
And if you had such a wonderful life with a wife like that, what are you doing here pursuing escorts, who you apparently presume to be such lowly creatures, instead of looking for another wonderful wife? According to your presumptions about us, you won't find what pleases you here because you seem to think we're all contemptable and unworthy of your respect.
So you were fortunate, good for you. I haven't been, though it hasn't been for lack of trying and doing what I thought was right. I always thought if I gave what I sought and treated the men in my life as I wanted to be treated, surely I would find the right one. But apparently, all a woman ever gets for that is taken for granted and abused. And I'll never understand that. The last man I tried to have a relationship with (who never knew about my escorting until it was obvious that it was way beyond over) hurt me so much, it was unbearable, and I thought he was far too nice and decent a man to hurt me anywhere near as bad as the john did, but I was wrong in the end. And I decided that's it, I'm done and I don't need this abuse anymore. I'd rather get paid than played.
Just like you don't respect married men for using your services.
When did I ever say that? I understand why they use my services, and I'm very sympathetic to them, I've always been a very empathic person, but I wouldn't want to be one of their wives. I consider myself too good of a lover and too giving to be the type a man would cheat on and I'd be horrified to learn that my husband had just run off and paid someone else to satisfy his needs instead of communicating them to me and allowing me to meet them. I'm the kind of open-minded woman who can meet those needs, not get shut out.
Maybe your boyfriends don't respect you for being with those married men.
Again, you assume that I have a lengthy enough history doing this that I've actually had boyfriends that know I do/have done this and have judged me for it, and you're quite wrong about that.
I think it's a little sad that you think that having a John tell you your beautiful, and being on his best behavor for one hour at a time is better then a relationship. It fantasy not reality.
No, I think it's quite sad that no man I've met so far has been mature enough or had enough self-esteem to appreciate having a warm-hearted, giving, loving, affectionate, beautiful and sensuous woman like me love him every day of his life, and that the last one I was in a long-term relationship with thinks so little so himself and considers himself so unworthy of me that he had to screw it up for both of us, and my children, by engaging in the most colossal act of self-sabotage I've ever witnessed.
So what if they don't mean it when they compliment me? At least they make the effort to do so. At least it feels good and puts a smile on my face. I can tell a phoney compliment from a mile away and my clients mean it when they compliment me. To suggest otherwise is to insult me and you have no cause to insult me like that.
And from what you're saying, it can be assumed that you either never compliment an escort or you never mean it when you do, in which case, you rarely, if ever, are rewarded by the warm, radiant smile that can result when you do a lady the honour of paying her a sincere compliment. Perhaps as a result, you think all escorts are bitter, unhappy women because you've created that reality for yourself.
You come across as just another man who is trying to abuse me without cause.
I am a good woman with a good heart and good intentions in everything I do. I won't accept less than respect from you or anyone else because I am worthy of it and because above all else, I respect myself. I have earned the right to be respected. What I do as an escort isn't degrading, it's beneficial and therapeutic, whether physically, emotionally, spiritually or all of those things put together. I will not be ashamed of what I do. How dare you even suggest that I should be or that I am less worthy of love from a man because I do it. I provide my services with genuine caring and respect for my clients because I am a loving person and I am no less worthy of being loved and respected than any other woman on this earth.
And if you are here, chances are you patronize the services of escorts, and therefore, you have no right to call me down in any way, shape or form for being one.
