I am stunned that you posted this and that you are so blatantly honest about yourself because not many would have posted this.
Like I said before many providers play their characters within the session and are complete pros at creating connection either genuine or not.
Clients need to realize that they are buying the fantasy girl that is the absolute best version of herself.
My eyes were opened long ago by a couple of ladies that told me exactly what they really thought of their clients.
After hearing what they said it really made me view my appointments in a much different light and made me not take anything that is said by a provider overly serious due to the smoke and mirrors.
I'm pretty sure most of the providers I know would acknowledge that we are our best, happy, attentive, horny selves in session; and that is not indicative of our personality 24/7. ALL my connections are genuine. I'm getting paid to perform and connect and I really enjoy doing it, so I don't have to fake it. It would be okay if I did though; not everyone has to like our jobs. I'm lucky that I do. I tell my clients exactly what I think of them. I once called a client racist in session. Guess what? He came back. My honestly is part of my appeal.
You are good actress! Perfected art of illusion?
More revealing is know ones own short coming! Always chance of shedding them.
Wish all the best in life. As mentioned if I am coming west surely spend time with you to know good and bad of you!?
Happy thanksgiving
I guess "the worst parts" are just...me not being interested in something you're saying. Me not necessarily being the person I present 100% all the time. My depression and anxiety. The fact that I'm actually nonbinary. Things that are often PERCEIVED as negative by my clientele or parts of me as a whole person that I leave on the back burner so we can have a 100% fun time together.
Honestly, clients also present their best selves in session so if I fall for a client, I'm probably falling for a fantasy too.
I look forward to hopefully meeting you someday!
Interesting statement. You can learn a lot about a person by the things he or she states online or publically to the press. The convictions they have. The battles they fight and the demons they inadvertantly reveal. What they stand for. They have nothing to do with your occupation but they reveal more about you than you likely realize.
So for you to claim, that none would want to be with you outside of the illusion you present as a service provider is 99% wrong. The 1% insecurity in such a statement reveals a vulnerability that you don't believe people would accept you as you truly are.
It's not insecurity, hahaha! I'm not insecure. My clientele are just not the type of people who would want to date me if they knew everything about me. I don't NEED everyone to accept me as I am. I have my friends and romantic partners for that.
Renting the privilege of driving in a Bugatti is great for photo-ops and a lifetime memory for one of modest means, but the price of admission does NOT later include a duty to pay for a typical $20,000 oil change. That is an example of undesirable overhead.
Seeing providers equates to dining on that fabulous chicken or steak in a fancy restaurant. When confronted directly with the explicit details of the path that that food arrived on your plate and the cigar-smoking chef in the kitchen you don't see, that alters the memory of that experience one can't unsee. Many people are vegans for that reason because they are empaths that choose not to filter out unpleasantries.
Usually I hate comparisons of companions to food and cars but this is spot on. I'd add that the work involved in cooking a fancy meal is too much for some, and they'd rather just pay for someone to cook it for them (the provider experience). I need a LOT of emotional maturity, empathy, and trust from the people who are in my life for free, and there are not very many of them--but god I love them all so much. I have honestly never met a man who is up to the task of cooking the meal or even cooking half of it; he might get the wrong ingredients from the grocery store or resent having to help make the meal. The money replaces that labour that he'd have to do to get the best of me.
