My past BDSM experiences have, for the most part, been positive and have given me memories to take away and enjoy. During my journey, I have met many partners that I would certainly chose to play with again. However, nothing has given me the one thing that I truly desired, a complete power exchange. The tops, bottoms, dom(mmes) and subs can debate about who is in control, but the reality is that in a typical pro-domme session, the client retains a lot of control. You can spin it any way you want. Even though the domme is leading the session, in reality, everything that she is doing is geared to giving the sub/bottom the experience he desires.
For the record, I wrote a review of a previous session with Miss T. where the subject of control was discussed. Even though the question of "who do you think is in control" came during the session after I had been restrained and made to do things, everything that happened fit in with a fantasy that I had shared with Miss T. prior to the session.
When Miss T. mentioned that she wanted to hear from like-minded kinksters who were interested in a hard-core extended session that would be about what she wanted and desired, I was excited by the opportunity. After a few PM's and chatting with Miss T., we arranged a time (I was to be at her place on Sunday evening, our session would extend overnight and end when she was ready to stop) and discussed few details, including expectations, safety concerns and hard limits. Since our time together was going to be about Miss T. taking what she wanted and breaking me down physically and emotionally for her pleasure, there was no discussion about what I wanted to happen. From our past sessions and conversations, Miss T. already had a good read on my likes and dislikes and dropped a few hints on what might happen to me. As I mulled over this in anticipation of our session, I figured this was intended to get into my head in preparation for breaking me down.
I was both excited and apprehensive as the session approached. I did not know what Miss T. was expecting to take from me or how she was going to break me. All I knew was that I was going to give to her anything she demanded. I would discover that many of the things Miss T. demanded from me were intended to challenge my abilities and resolve. Any performance not to her satisfaction resulted in severe punishments while giving her everything she wanted resulted in rewards on many levels.
When I arrived at Miss T.'s, I discovered immediately that she would push the intensity level beyond what I had experienced in prior sessions with her. She had planned a variety of activities designed to wear me out, to break me down and to satisfy her.
I was tied up and restrained in multiple ways. Miss T. knows my fascination with bondage, including my interest in escaping and making bondage escapable. Miss T. took it as a challenge throughout the evening to try more and more elaborate restraints and required me to escape from what predicament she put me in. I would not be allowed to fail, but I would also punished if she thought I was mocking her whenever I escaped quickly. Most of the bondage she put me in worked well. A lot of them I escaped because it was a hot evening and I was sweating a lot, allowing me to slip out of the bondage rather than undoing it.
While restrained, I was also blindfolded and subjected to a variety of aural and tactile sensations - both painful and sensual. Miss T. did things that she knew I liked, but in testing my pain tolerance, she required me to accept corporal punishments she knew would break me. She knows I'm not able to tolerate canes and whip and used a variety of canes and a dragon's tongue generously on me. At times the sensations would come one right after the other, other times there were pauses in between, designed to make wonder what was coming next, also to cause me to lose all sense of time and to test my limits on processing the sensation. The latter was accomplished when broke me down physically for the first time during the evening and I needed to use a safe word, although she had not yet achieved the emotional breakdown she needed.
I was required to endure humiliations that satisfied her fantasies and as a final requirement for our first evening, required to accept a spanking like a good little boy. When she was not happy with my performance, she threw me into a cold shower. When I promised to do as she asked, I was allowed out of the shower, but with a promise that if I did not accept he spanking properly, I would be returned to the cold shower. Back to the spanking and after Miss T chose paddles designed to create more sting and more pain, and finally broke down and cried, begging Miss T. to stop. Satisfied with what I had given her, Miss T comforted me, allowing me to release my emotional barriers while I recovered.
That ended the intense play for the evening. As prepared for bed, she promised me that I would need to give her more in the morning, after I had cleaned-up the mess we had created.
The next morning mostly involved tasks to service Miss T. She did require me, though, to accept more corporal punishment, which she promised would be more intense than from the evening before. While she started with a flogger which she knows is my favourite impact toy, she was more intent in using the canes and dragon's tongue to mark me. By the way, she noted I put away in the hope that she wouldn't use them again. The corporal play continued until I was no longer able to give her any more. I finally had to beg her to stop which she did only after I began to cry.
After she had comforted me and I recovered, as a reward, I was given a final task - one that Miss T. will only allow submissives chosen by her to perform for her. I was required worship her pussy and ass until she was satisfied. For clarity, this is a Your Mileage May Very activity, Miss T will not do this with all her clients and definitely not with anybody she has never sessioned with before. So don't expect it and don't ask for it. If you call her expecting it, chances are she won't see you.
There were a few more things required of me afterwards, but mostly I was allowed lie on the floor to gather my thoughts and recover emotionally while Miss T. carried on with her morning activities. When we were finished, at a time chosen by Miss T. and not known by me beforehand, I was exhausted, both emotionally and physically. As I write this, my head is still spinning from the euphoria of the experience. This type of play is definitely not for the timid. It requires complete and unconditional trust. Trust by giver in that the taker will respect the hard limits and will keep everything safe. It also requires that the taker can trust the giver. Most people won't understand what is in it for the sub/bottom. The rewards are an emotional catharsis and achieving an intimacy that those who understand this type of play are able to comprehend.
For those who want this type of experience, I pass on a piece of advice that was given to me, be prepared to give anything that is demanded, including your most intimate of secrets. Do not resist anything. Let Miss T. push you beyond what you think you are capable. If you do this, the rewards will be greater than you can imagine - and for those who may be thinking about the pussy/ass worship, I'm not referring to that. The rewards are emotional, a catharsis, an epiphany and a different type of bond between you and the top/dom, having shared a rare intimacy and trust that few people experience.
My rewards were many. I was given something that Miss T. knew I craved for a long time. I was able to share long-hidden secrets that I wanted others to share, but kept hidden because I knew very few people would understand them and many would judge them negatively. I was able to open up many compartments that I carefully guarded.
For the record, I wrote a review of a previous session with Miss T. where the subject of control was discussed. Even though the question of "who do you think is in control" came during the session after I had been restrained and made to do things, everything that happened fit in with a fantasy that I had shared with Miss T. prior to the session.
When Miss T. mentioned that she wanted to hear from like-minded kinksters who were interested in a hard-core extended session that would be about what she wanted and desired, I was excited by the opportunity. After a few PM's and chatting with Miss T., we arranged a time (I was to be at her place on Sunday evening, our session would extend overnight and end when she was ready to stop) and discussed few details, including expectations, safety concerns and hard limits. Since our time together was going to be about Miss T. taking what she wanted and breaking me down physically and emotionally for her pleasure, there was no discussion about what I wanted to happen. From our past sessions and conversations, Miss T. already had a good read on my likes and dislikes and dropped a few hints on what might happen to me. As I mulled over this in anticipation of our session, I figured this was intended to get into my head in preparation for breaking me down.
I was both excited and apprehensive as the session approached. I did not know what Miss T. was expecting to take from me or how she was going to break me. All I knew was that I was going to give to her anything she demanded. I would discover that many of the things Miss T. demanded from me were intended to challenge my abilities and resolve. Any performance not to her satisfaction resulted in severe punishments while giving her everything she wanted resulted in rewards on many levels.
When I arrived at Miss T.'s, I discovered immediately that she would push the intensity level beyond what I had experienced in prior sessions with her. She had planned a variety of activities designed to wear me out, to break me down and to satisfy her.
I was tied up and restrained in multiple ways. Miss T. knows my fascination with bondage, including my interest in escaping and making bondage escapable. Miss T. took it as a challenge throughout the evening to try more and more elaborate restraints and required me to escape from what predicament she put me in. I would not be allowed to fail, but I would also punished if she thought I was mocking her whenever I escaped quickly. Most of the bondage she put me in worked well. A lot of them I escaped because it was a hot evening and I was sweating a lot, allowing me to slip out of the bondage rather than undoing it.
While restrained, I was also blindfolded and subjected to a variety of aural and tactile sensations - both painful and sensual. Miss T. did things that she knew I liked, but in testing my pain tolerance, she required me to accept corporal punishments she knew would break me. She knows I'm not able to tolerate canes and whip and used a variety of canes and a dragon's tongue generously on me. At times the sensations would come one right after the other, other times there were pauses in between, designed to make wonder what was coming next, also to cause me to lose all sense of time and to test my limits on processing the sensation. The latter was accomplished when broke me down physically for the first time during the evening and I needed to use a safe word, although she had not yet achieved the emotional breakdown she needed.
I was required to endure humiliations that satisfied her fantasies and as a final requirement for our first evening, required to accept a spanking like a good little boy. When she was not happy with my performance, she threw me into a cold shower. When I promised to do as she asked, I was allowed out of the shower, but with a promise that if I did not accept he spanking properly, I would be returned to the cold shower. Back to the spanking and after Miss T chose paddles designed to create more sting and more pain, and finally broke down and cried, begging Miss T. to stop. Satisfied with what I had given her, Miss T comforted me, allowing me to release my emotional barriers while I recovered.
That ended the intense play for the evening. As prepared for bed, she promised me that I would need to give her more in the morning, after I had cleaned-up the mess we had created.
The next morning mostly involved tasks to service Miss T. She did require me, though, to accept more corporal punishment, which she promised would be more intense than from the evening before. While she started with a flogger which she knows is my favourite impact toy, she was more intent in using the canes and dragon's tongue to mark me. By the way, she noted I put away in the hope that she wouldn't use them again. The corporal play continued until I was no longer able to give her any more. I finally had to beg her to stop which she did only after I began to cry.
After she had comforted me and I recovered, as a reward, I was given a final task - one that Miss T. will only allow submissives chosen by her to perform for her. I was required worship her pussy and ass until she was satisfied. For clarity, this is a Your Mileage May Very activity, Miss T will not do this with all her clients and definitely not with anybody she has never sessioned with before. So don't expect it and don't ask for it. If you call her expecting it, chances are she won't see you.
There were a few more things required of me afterwards, but mostly I was allowed lie on the floor to gather my thoughts and recover emotionally while Miss T. carried on with her morning activities. When we were finished, at a time chosen by Miss T. and not known by me beforehand, I was exhausted, both emotionally and physically. As I write this, my head is still spinning from the euphoria of the experience. This type of play is definitely not for the timid. It requires complete and unconditional trust. Trust by giver in that the taker will respect the hard limits and will keep everything safe. It also requires that the taker can trust the giver. Most people won't understand what is in it for the sub/bottom. The rewards are an emotional catharsis and achieving an intimacy that those who understand this type of play are able to comprehend.
For those who want this type of experience, I pass on a piece of advice that was given to me, be prepared to give anything that is demanded, including your most intimate of secrets. Do not resist anything. Let Miss T. push you beyond what you think you are capable. If you do this, the rewards will be greater than you can imagine - and for those who may be thinking about the pussy/ass worship, I'm not referring to that. The rewards are emotional, a catharsis, an epiphany and a different type of bond between you and the top/dom, having shared a rare intimacy and trust that few people experience.
My rewards were many. I was given something that Miss T. knew I craved for a long time. I was able to share long-hidden secrets that I wanted others to share, but kept hidden because I knew very few people would understand them and many would judge them negatively. I was able to open up many compartments that I carefully guarded.
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