Witness for the cause!

[johnsmit]

Yes I have chastised the board members for not standing up for their right
And that applies to me too.
The problem is my story would not further the cause but would probably help the opposition as just another pathetic pervert.
I don't see my self completely that way but there is some truth to it.
Needless to say..much of my story is the same as many of yours.. and not.

I have related most of it before.. a few people hung them selves other ate a gun...The facts of it are sad but true and I would not change a thing...because it just life after all.

Before I go caught up in this community I was a shy introvert...With not ability to get a girl friend ..not that I could not talk to women .I could ..Had my fave waitresses .that I allway saw. .maybe obsessively. .or there were drugs store clerks. .and bank tellers..and later on the part time dancer at the strip club..That one was a good friend for awhile..but I never followed up on the one opertunity to have sex.. Perhaps there were a few others..but I just respected women to much..and was really nervous in any emotional situation..To some degree I still am.with girls that I have seen as escorts but now are just friend.. I have my desires but respect still comes first.

So most of my adult sexual life was dominated by masterbation and watching porn. That did not change until I was 50..and even then my desire to not be a virgin any more was still at odds with respect and care for a women.
I booked my first appointment with an escort .because I thought it was my striper friend and she had decided to do escorting.I wanted to offer help to stay out of the business... Thankfully it turned out not to be her..that's when I decided to go farther the. Just a massage.. I kind of knew what I was doing.. but never came. A month later I saw a different escort. Booked two hrs walked out in one.. just was uncomfortable with someone that was high.. The next month I saw some one different again.. That was a better experience .. and then again the next month I saw another new girl...That we my best sex so fare .and I repeated with her four more times in the next 7 days. Over did it a bit.

Later in the month I saw another new girl...and then was thinking about doing something great for New years.
So I put it out here on perb . ..and did got a few responses .One was from the third lady I had see.. I black lady.in her late 30s. .We seem to hit it off, PM and meet to plan a new year party... I was not to sure what to do .I never did new years dates..and I don't party..but decided I would book a dinner and a jacuzzi room.. Then I got a cold just day before and decided to cancel at the last min. Because I did not allowed her to make other plans. I payed the 1000. I offered.

The new yr saw me seeing my fave again. And then I saw the black lady for a therapeutic massage..that was her profession
I saw her a few more time for the same and we became friends. I started to help her out and date her.. but not much happen .I lived at home and I took her there once.. a bit of a disaster. . My small bed ..not the right place for sex..
And after my mom said she looked like a hooked lol And she was dressed ok in my opinion.

Well we did the Valentin thing.i rented a room in a little motel no the water but a normal tub that later spoiled the whole night when it over flowed with both of us in it. Getting her a little bullet vibrator did not help much either when that pleased her better then me But even after that disaster I stuck with it . ..then an other tiff.. which caused me to go see another escort.. That was the wrong thing to do.. she knew the lady.. and I don't think trusted me after that .I patched up things.. took her on a small trip which was an other flop..

I just put it down to my Inexperience so I continued to see her and support her more..
Yes I thought I was a boy friend turns out I did not want to see that I was just a sugar daddy.kind of started think that way when we were talking of moving in together until one day after paying g her a bunch of money I could not contact her any more..I heard from her 4 months later. She needed some help .

I knew it was over and saw an escort that night. The one that became one of my best friends for the last 8 yes.
I all so made up for the frustration of the unfulfilled relationship and saw a number of other girls in the next 4 months..
Mia was my regular ..that I experienced bunch of things I had never .done before..including the foursome. And then getting into doing photo shoots... I did mostly 2 hour appointments back then..

There was number of year .posting here on perb.. seeing different girl.. getting involved with them on a personal level.. and losing touch with them too as they left the business
I also started driving for agencies and met more girls and heard there stories and again saw a few that also have become some more long time friends..

In the last 4 years I have slowed right down.. staying with seeing mostly the friend I know.. and not seeing them for sex when they leave the business.
The other side is that I also know the problem they have . In and out of the business. And that is where I don't think I would be a good witness for promoting the rights to having prostitution. And that there is no down side.. yes there is.

 

[sevenofnine]

I think it depends on what you what back,

The story you told I think could be flipped either way, I mean some one could say hookers have stopped you from having a meaning full relationship with a women a true one, instead of a make believe one.

and women to, I mean you can spin it any way you want, its good or bad,

but the truth is I think every life is unique there is no mold that fits us all. there is no one way to live a life.

I think are you happy is the answer.

In your golden years do you see happiness or sadness for things you never did, or family etc you never had, or maybe love,

I think your only a looser if wanted something in your life, and you never had the courage the balls to go out and get it.
And you only know what is important in your life, important to you,


Me I feel very lucky like im cheating sometimes, I have a nice home a family, a nice life.
and this lady I see on the side, it doesn't seem fair,
that I have it both, I have it all.


prostitution whether it is right or wrong,
it is more about the attitude of the people involved, that is what makes it right or wrong.

 

[johnsmit]

I did not put the story out there to be bout what escorts have done for me or done to me. More to say ..would my story help or hinder the cause of having prostitution allowed .
How would other people's story help or hinder in defeating this bill.

Would we all look like victim of some sort.. no matter how positive and truthful we tell our story.

 

[sevenofnine]

you know

reading this again some advice,

I grew up in a very dysfunctional family my father jailed a couple of times,
not a big deal,

but you know, I couldn't socialize I had panic attacks and anxiety attacks when I had to talk to someone, I spent most of my child hood alone.

but you know something there were things in this world I wanted, so I over came them.

I remember on my worst day ever as a kid, I thought my father is in jail no girl could even possible want me.

I went around and asked girls for there phone number asked them for a date, I got several.
I never followed up on them I felt to much the geek and insecure and my father in jail like I could imagine the girl bringing me home getting introduced to her parents and being asked what does your father do. I wasn't in the mood.

But one day I knew I would be.
seriously I was so fucked up I couldn't hold a conversation with anyone,

fast forward and today I am one of the most social person around.

My point is if you want something bad enough you can change.
stop whinnng stop making excuses and change.

I was the most fucked up kid ever, now married for thirty some years, spent a great day with my kids.

sps that I have repeated with tend to just tell me to stay, I don't have to leave,

women are easy to meet and talk to, in a tims' line up or at work,

if my wife kicked me out, I would be shacked up by the end of the week,

seriously if you need to change your life stop whinning and change. it

if you have Netflix watch buck I think its called the guy who the movie horse whisper was based on, its a lot in some ways like my own life.

again if you don't like your life change it.
and I apologize if this is rude or offends you

 

[johnsmit]

Well you read it wrong again

I never complained about the life I have choose

I was just say her part of my experience in this business
And I don't think telling the story would help the cause of making prostitution legal
But I would not change much of any thing I did in the last 9 yrs