I am a true submissive at heart and used to do BDSM with many different Mistresses over many years. I stopped about 15 years ago.
Why? Because I can no longer "trust." Trust is the most important issue when you submit to a domme. You are literally leaving yourself completely helpless, vulnerable and exposed, in the hands of your domme.
Twice, in my BDSM experiences, I felt that "trust" was broken. The first time, I was saran wrapped, with only my mouth and penis exposed, for "breath play" torture. I'd tried this before and found it very exciting. But on this occasion, the domme left me alone in this condition to attend to some other business, for what seemed like an eternity. I had a massive panic attack and probably came pretty close to having a heart attack!
My second bad experience was at the hands of another domme. After being tied up and gagged by this lady, she proceeded to use a butt plug, vibrator and strapon on me without covering them with condoms. This practice is about as "unsafe" as the sharing of needles among drug addicts! I felt truly violated and for what? The price of a couple of condoms!
After that, I swore I would never put myself into such a vulnerable position again.
Now, the furthest I go in submission to a woman is devoted DATY and fervent foot worship.
But I do miss the complete experience. The "ecstasy" of absolutely surrendering control is so beautifully intense! Ahhh well.......
Why? Because I can no longer "trust." Trust is the most important issue when you submit to a domme. You are literally leaving yourself completely helpless, vulnerable and exposed, in the hands of your domme.
Twice, in my BDSM experiences, I felt that "trust" was broken. The first time, I was saran wrapped, with only my mouth and penis exposed, for "breath play" torture. I'd tried this before and found it very exciting. But on this occasion, the domme left me alone in this condition to attend to some other business, for what seemed like an eternity. I had a massive panic attack and probably came pretty close to having a heart attack!
My second bad experience was at the hands of another domme. After being tied up and gagged by this lady, she proceeded to use a butt plug, vibrator and strapon on me without covering them with condoms. This practice is about as "unsafe" as the sharing of needles among drug addicts! I felt truly violated and for what? The price of a couple of condoms!
After that, I swore I would never put myself into such a vulnerable position again.
Now, the furthest I go in submission to a woman is devoted DATY and fervent foot worship.
But I do miss the complete experience. The "ecstasy" of absolutely surrendering control is so beautifully intense! Ahhh well.......
