Yes. It wasn't too long ago that I posted here asking for advice about whether I should break the seal with a paid lady or not. Well I eventually did and it was...less than spectacular. I was a nervous wreck and I couldn't keep it hard or cum at all. I didn't try again for about two years until I went on a trip overseas where I visited a blowjob parlour. Now I've returned from that trip and am finding myself seeking company with a fair maiden once a month. I've noticed that my appetite for sex is growing into a hunger for lust and debauchery. I see money now as a ticket to companionship and wasteful goods. The kicker to this whole thing? I don't mind it. I don't mind it at all, in fact, I'm in love with the lifestyle. Perhaps I've finally transitioned into manhood?
No. I'm living a life of irresponsibility and pleasure. I'm seeking what amounts to an empty experience in the end to fulfill the gaping hole in my heart. I don't think I've transitioned into manhood. I'm still a boy. I'm still a boy seeking new toys to play with.
No. I'm living a life of irresponsibility and pleasure. I'm seeking what amounts to an empty experience in the end to fulfill the gaping hole in my heart. I don't think I've transitioned into manhood. I'm still a boy. I'm still a boy seeking new toys to play with.





