It is a basic need..for all creatures..us humans..seem to need it more to keep our sanity.
We all have different levels..that can satisfy. .some more or less...
.I often post that I am a loner...and yet I choose to be near people most of my life..
Lived with my parents for most of 50 yr....When I was out I went to pubs to eat And drink my tea or pop. And I also would go see moves a lot .. by myself. ..or even the strip bars. But in all those situations .. I went a lone..I got something out of being near others....Of course this was not intimacy. This was just shared experiences.
I needed intimacy Just like every one else I saw with some one. But never could quite Get close enough ..or open up enough to others.. As years went by it got a little easyer..and I made a few female friends.. close in some ways .. but not intimate.
Perhaps the possiblity was there ..I could never bring my self to fully take it.
And then again those I knew .. never made it very clear. Must be the type of people I am drawn to..
It was only when I started seeing escorts ..that I found some of what I was lacking. . Even though sex and kissing.and cuddling with some one you pay .. many would say is not intimacy. . If there is a connectio . Yes it is to some degree..
And I did connect with a few of the women..beyond just paying for sex.
.With a few there is some thing more .. but it is all way tempered by my lacking something..and their need for some one younger and maybe more fun.. .
I don't drink..smoke or do drugs..to help.me drop my inhibitions. .so unless I real get excited about something ..I find it hard to let go...Actually the few times I let go is when I pay for sex...other time I am restricted by my own perception of how I should act..
Never the less this is my problem with intimacy. .but those that I know ..I gave noticed ..have their own need for intimacy ..and pursue it in different maners. as so many women and men do They seem to get in to relationships that ..might full fill sexual needs..and some emotional needs.. but over look some of the destructive nature that there partner cause...
Usually is abuse ..or control..of some kind..other time it just being used. .and they don't want to see it or leave it Because..there is some in being full filled. ..but at what cost..
intimacy We need it..but to find some one that we are happy with in all aspects of that intimate relationship. Is the hardest part..
We all have different levels..that can satisfy. .some more or less...
.I often post that I am a loner...and yet I choose to be near people most of my life..
Lived with my parents for most of 50 yr....When I was out I went to pubs to eat And drink my tea or pop. And I also would go see moves a lot .. by myself. ..or even the strip bars. But in all those situations .. I went a lone..I got something out of being near others....Of course this was not intimacy. This was just shared experiences.
I needed intimacy Just like every one else I saw with some one. But never could quite Get close enough ..or open up enough to others.. As years went by it got a little easyer..and I made a few female friends.. close in some ways .. but not intimate.
Perhaps the possiblity was there ..I could never bring my self to fully take it.
And then again those I knew .. never made it very clear. Must be the type of people I am drawn to..
It was only when I started seeing escorts ..that I found some of what I was lacking. . Even though sex and kissing.and cuddling with some one you pay .. many would say is not intimacy. . If there is a connectio . Yes it is to some degree..
And I did connect with a few of the women..beyond just paying for sex.
.With a few there is some thing more .. but it is all way tempered by my lacking something..and their need for some one younger and maybe more fun.. .
I don't drink..smoke or do drugs..to help.me drop my inhibitions. .so unless I real get excited about something ..I find it hard to let go...Actually the few times I let go is when I pay for sex...other time I am restricted by my own perception of how I should act..
Never the less this is my problem with intimacy. .but those that I know ..I gave noticed ..have their own need for intimacy ..and pursue it in different maners. as so many women and men do They seem to get in to relationships that ..might full fill sexual needs..and some emotional needs.. but over look some of the destructive nature that there partner cause...
Usually is abuse ..or control..of some kind..other time it just being used. .and they don't want to see it or leave it Because..there is some in being full filled. ..but at what cost..
intimacy We need it..but to find some one that we are happy with in all aspects of that intimate relationship. Is the hardest part..
