i guess to echo a few thoughts it gets complicated.
almost a decade i have been doing this, but with mostly two women. especially one,
im to the point now, im done with this hobby, but will still see one girl as long as it makes sense but other then that, when its over its over
i guess most of all there was an emotional connection, that is why i reapeated. there was chemistry between us.
my rational if your going to pay some one alot of money and well have sex with a certain element of trust, you might as well be friends,
some girls the sex was pretty good, but there was no trust. no chemistry, so i kept on going back to two ladies. who, we had something more then just the sex.
and then it does get complicated, you kind of become friends she lets you into her personal life to some extent.
you can get lost in emotions, or she can, or you dump a whole lot of money on her coffee table and she unloads on you some story from her personal life that can intrude on the session,
so there is go and bad, when your long term with an sp, she is your friend, so when she is having a bad time, she lets you in on her life, then you wonder what you just paid for,
or your thinking god i love this women or maybe you think she loves you, and wonder what the hell mess you just got your self into.
i guess the only thing to say is trust yourself, if you fall in love with your sp, could you take the hit if one day you realize your just a dollars sign to her. just because you happen to love her doesn't mean, she is going to love you back or even care or it can possible work, so could you walk away and just be content with the memory, if not, i guess don't get that close to anyone,
and can you trust her, walking through the mall with your family, one day, could you trust her not to embarress you if it all falls apart.
so i guess what im trying to say,
make sure you know the person your invloved with and know your self
and be realistic and be an adult.
and i guess it depends what your looking for when you start this hobby to,
just some one to fuck, and then walk away.
when i first started this, i introduced myself to the ladies,
as a guy looking for something long term, looking for some place comfortable i could go regularly relax unwind enjoy myself.make a night out of it instead of a half an hour or an hour
ah the second lady i saw in this, i still see, its been a long road, we have been all over the place,
even had an arguement, and had complicated emotions,
but now were just comfortable no big expectations i think from either one of us. and a level of trust and friendship i think that goes beyond this hobby, we tend to stay in touch, even if one of us is taking a break, in the form of a holiday or illness,
i dunno we struggled through all the complications that can happen if you see some one long term, and in a sense, worked them out,
i know im rambling but it really is an odd sort of relationship when you go long term with an sp
