Hello All,
I don't know, just felt like writing and sharing something. If you're here, thanks for reading. Hope this makes sense.
I finally figured out how to enjoy the company of an SP. Finally. After about 8 tries that really didn't work all that well for me, if finally cleared the shit out of my head and have started enjoying myself.
This is kind of a big deal. Sucks to spend $$$ and come out thinking "wow, that was soooo not worth it". Yet always I felt I was my own worst enemy, so I never held it against the ladies. I was so ill-at-ease and uptight, I was afraid to enjoy myself because....I don't know why actually. I guess partly I couldn't let go and just enjoy a women as a sexual being. I love and respect women and whole human being. I got no issues with women as bosses or presidents, no problem with women bosses, none of that shit. I just felt kind of 'rude' to revel in the interaction. Stupid huh?
Some how got past that. Not sure why, maybe stupidity eventually heals itself. It was Meka (or Meko?) at Great Pharaoh that started it. Amazing chick, fucking cool as hell, and damn sexy. First time I ever just dropped my guard and had some fun. I was in a bad place at that time, with health and work and home life stresses, but she was gold to be with. Quite a profound experience, and helped initiate a good inner conversation about shit. Put some of that into practice with Tiny Tina the other night, and had a ball!
Here comes the interesting part....
I just realized that with a good SP, and now with me being in a much better mindset, this hobby can be FUN
I don't know, just felt like writing and sharing something. If you're here, thanks for reading. Hope this makes sense.
I finally figured out how to enjoy the company of an SP. Finally. After about 8 tries that really didn't work all that well for me, if finally cleared the shit out of my head and have started enjoying myself.
This is kind of a big deal. Sucks to spend $$$ and come out thinking "wow, that was soooo not worth it". Yet always I felt I was my own worst enemy, so I never held it against the ladies. I was so ill-at-ease and uptight, I was afraid to enjoy myself because....I don't know why actually. I guess partly I couldn't let go and just enjoy a women as a sexual being. I love and respect women and whole human being. I got no issues with women as bosses or presidents, no problem with women bosses, none of that shit. I just felt kind of 'rude' to revel in the interaction. Stupid huh?
Some how got past that. Not sure why, maybe stupidity eventually heals itself. It was Meka (or Meko?) at Great Pharaoh that started it. Amazing chick, fucking cool as hell, and damn sexy. First time I ever just dropped my guard and had some fun. I was in a bad place at that time, with health and work and home life stresses, but she was gold to be with. Quite a profound experience, and helped initiate a good inner conversation about shit. Put some of that into practice with Tiny Tina the other night, and had a ball!
Here comes the interesting part....
I just realized that with a good SP, and now with me being in a much better mindset, this hobby can be FUN
