I dunno, it just seems funny,
I got together with my sp yesterday, she commented it has been like a dozen years we have been seeing each other,
it all hasn't been roses, not even close, but, for the most part all I have ever said is see you in a week,
after twelve years, yesterday we are planning vacations together. I trust her, and maybe a lot more,
and it would have been easy to just say fuck it all
married forty some years, and yes pretty much the same deal, a lot of rough times, but were still together,
not perfect but enjoy our time together have a family together and grand kids.
when I started seeing sp,s I thought fuck I don't give a dam if my marriage ends,
but we kept on going.
work same thing, kept on going how many people moved on, took endless stress leave sick,
family, I showed up for every hockey game soccer game swim lesson dance lesson
don't get me wrong im not saying im a great dad a great parent a husband even a client to a certain sp.
but I kept on going
how many people have just checked out, of marriage of work of showing up at there kids events and deals.
people can't even show up at fucking work,
I ended up lending money for food, well I took someone to Safeway to buy groceries they have a job, just don't show up very much. stress
I help my nieces and nephews with their activities volunteer, drive, even kick in a few bucks. I show up and their grand parents don't,
guys I know are single and whining and lonely they are nice guys, one even with a kid, and he was never involved with his kid.
they are nice guys but they always have something else to do, can't be bothered. don't want to commit to a wife or a girl friend.
or even their own kid.
I dunno im fucking stupid or just dumb fucking stubborn, but im always there, I show up,
when others don't
and I think that is half the battle just being stubborn enough to keep on going,
whether its marriage family kids extended family,
even a certain sp.
it fucking pisses me, off but im helping with people not even related to me, close to me in any way,
and all I can think of is where are the parents the grandchildren, the aunts the uncles the brothers and sisters
that a stranger is involved.
like what the fuck is the matter with people
trust me I am no one at all,
less then no one, you would not even notice me or pay attention to me.
but I keep on showing up, and getting involved, and taking care of business,
my business as well as others.
and I would like to smack people upside the head and ask them what the fuck is the matter with you.
yeah I think half the battle is just showing up and enduring
I got together with my sp yesterday, she commented it has been like a dozen years we have been seeing each other,
it all hasn't been roses, not even close, but, for the most part all I have ever said is see you in a week,
after twelve years, yesterday we are planning vacations together. I trust her, and maybe a lot more,
and it would have been easy to just say fuck it all
married forty some years, and yes pretty much the same deal, a lot of rough times, but were still together,
not perfect but enjoy our time together have a family together and grand kids.
when I started seeing sp,s I thought fuck I don't give a dam if my marriage ends,
but we kept on going.
work same thing, kept on going how many people moved on, took endless stress leave sick,
family, I showed up for every hockey game soccer game swim lesson dance lesson
don't get me wrong im not saying im a great dad a great parent a husband even a client to a certain sp.
but I kept on going
how many people have just checked out, of marriage of work of showing up at there kids events and deals.
people can't even show up at fucking work,
I ended up lending money for food, well I took someone to Safeway to buy groceries they have a job, just don't show up very much. stress
I help my nieces and nephews with their activities volunteer, drive, even kick in a few bucks. I show up and their grand parents don't,
guys I know are single and whining and lonely they are nice guys, one even with a kid, and he was never involved with his kid.
they are nice guys but they always have something else to do, can't be bothered. don't want to commit to a wife or a girl friend.
or even their own kid.
I dunno im fucking stupid or just dumb fucking stubborn, but im always there, I show up,
when others don't
and I think that is half the battle just being stubborn enough to keep on going,
whether its marriage family kids extended family,
even a certain sp.
it fucking pisses me, off but im helping with people not even related to me, close to me in any way,
and all I can think of is where are the parents the grandchildren, the aunts the uncles the brothers and sisters
that a stranger is involved.
like what the fuck is the matter with people
trust me I am no one at all,
less then no one, you would not even notice me or pay attention to me.
but I keep on showing up, and getting involved, and taking care of business,
my business as well as others.
and I would like to smack people upside the head and ask them what the fuck is the matter with you.
yeah I think half the battle is just showing up and enduring





