Take care dude.
Next time, don't miss your flight.
Go see a counsellor. Spend your pooning money on that, you'll actually feel better in the long run than pooning to solve your problem. If you have time, go see a counsellor before you go on your trip... it'll give you something to think about while you try to get yourself together.
Be sure you don't take any drugs with you or your ass might end up in jail.
Be sure you don't have unsafe sex with a hooker as you are depressed and more subject to such behavior.
Be sure you don't spend all your money to avoid deeper depression.
Look at all the pretty girls in the world and be glad you are alive and maybe have a chance with one of them.
By the way, "eliza" is the name of a test to screen people for HIV. See
ELIZA