This is just the way of things in this business. Women come and go (as do clients). I can think of a number of BOA ladies who took a big piece of my heart and then moved on, often abruptly-- Shae, Janessa, Sakari, Bailey, Lexie, recently Vixen and Emmalyn, and many more...what I would not give to see any one of them just one more time. As hard as it can be in practice the best attitude is "don't cry because it's over, rather smile because it happened". I know in theory this is a purely transactional enterprise-- but we are only humans particitpating in the most intimate of human activities...it is inevitable that much more than just money is often gived and received. All one can really do is be grateful that these beautiful souls cross our path, even if just fleetingly, from time to time, and be happy and hopeful that they are moving onward and upward to better things.
EDIT: FWIW If you check the BOA Notices page it says Fay is just taking a break...so you may see her again. Also (unrelated) Scarlet's new pics look yummy.