I don't know how to deactivate this account. Is it possible for mods to ban me. I do not need this anymore. Even though I have found some great connections through this website. I need to move on as it was always a distraction for me which i needed in life to get me out of a personal rut. I was overworked, jaded, & very one dimensional & needed something to spice up my very boring personaI life. I never consider this as hobby it actually is an addiction which can consume a person entirely professionally & personally. I have achieved a lot in life by living a very desciplined life. I only had one addiction in life which is "caffeine" now I notice I have a Boderline addiction of perb. I never had the urge to bed multiple women in life if I get one good connection I would be very happy to just see her. I have found some that I would just be happy to repeat again & again. I think I don't need to share my experiences with anyone to make them more Exciting for me. My sex life can't be like how everyone's life is on Facebook or Instagram where you always have the most exciting things happening to you all the time. I also don't need pm telling me how I am being shortchanged by just taking one shot for my longer appointments while they get to pop twice in shorter time sessions. I do take long time & it gives me great satisfaction to please my partner even though I am paying for the session. Giving back is more fulfilling in every possible way. Maybe it's more fulfilling for some of us who need someone to listen to there struggles & challenges or share there joys & accomplishments. I know those things are more for real relationship but some time real lives are never black or white most of the time there is more grey. Also no I don't need CBJ or BBBJ to get it up if you do then that's great for you!! & also it's not that she does not have skill to get your junior up it's just you need to start exercising to boost your testosterone your junior is a senior now & it needs a fucking pill. Reading how others get to stay extra while you know you were half way though your home & still a minute left on your appointment is also not something I want to know either. I found myself checking this website more often then I was few months ago. Defending companions I have met & arguing for them with strangers. I think that's not what I want to focus my energy on any more. I have lot more to achieve in life. I will stick with WCA or outlook for whenever I need to see anyone but not be coming here to read or write on this forum. I don't see 4 girls a week anyway it was more like 2 in 6 months before but because of perb I notice I am once a week. As I like my sessions as real as possible if I continue reading this forum I will became more demanding more entitled & I will always feel someone else is paying less & getting more then me. So for now I will live in my own bubble as they say "ignorance is a bliss" .






