thanks so much
I do appreciate all the responses that I got as well as all of the pms.. with books and meal tips, as this has been a huge change for me. the reason why I posted here was because this is where I saw that video calgary jen put up, that shifted me towards this. I'm sure that many of you have seen videos of that sort before, but to be honest that was the first time I had ever seen any thing like that before, and I'm quite sensitive to that kind of material. I'm not doing this for health reasons, as I know that eating meat gives you many things that other food doesn't.. and I do want to be healthy, hense the reason I made a doctors appointment for myself next week. after much consideration, this is what it came down to for me.
AM I A MEAT EATER
Well in this day and age it's so easy to be one, as all u have to do is go down to the supermarket and buy whatever u desire. With that u don't have to deal with any of the remaining components of being a meat eater. The biggest one of all being weather or not u can kill. To tell you the truth if I were to buy a chicken, and take it home to eat it, lord knows I'd never be able to kill it. I would probably end up playing with it, and feeding it

There fore if I can't kill it. Im not going to eat it. and this has nothing to do with blood or guts, or it being a messy job,,, I really just couldnt kill it.
To me this is all funny as well, as I do still eat sea food, and Im not sure what makes the big difference for me between land animals and sea creatures. I'm not sure why its easier, so that part is a puzzle that im still trying to put together, but I love sea food and don't see my self giving it up any time soon. Mind you, I have caught fish, plenty of them

I used to fish all the time, and I have killed them, gutted them and eaten them!!
So this is my meathod of maddness, and since I'm new to all this I figured if there are other people who can recommend good books ect.. it saves me time, from not having to buy huge piles of books only to find out that the recipes taste like ass.. ( Im not fond of eating ass, thank u very much

) But I'd gladly lick man all day,,, just a taste I never swallow
