I don't think it matters what the person your with thinks,
I think you have to be honest with yourself. we tend to see what we want to believe and see.
I have been with my sp over a decade ok, seeing her regularly for over ten years.
I think we both have changed in that length of time, in ways we don't really comprehend
there has been many bumps and challenges as well and there continue to be difficulties in our relationship,
I try to be as honest an open as I can possible be with her, I have no idea what she is thinking.
but I think like I said it starts with you, your perception's change over time your understanding of things change over time.
it is a journey
for what ever reason. me and her we seem bonded in silly moments we have actually made promises to each other.
silly things. we drift apart. we get close.
are sp's honest.
I think as long as your paying money, well there is your answer.
you know business and pleasure is tough,
me and my sp are friends as much as anything but still we have this business arrangement
and at times I think it pisses us both of.
but it is the nature of our contact, of our relationship.
I think you will never really know how honest your sp or you are,
while you are still paying her, and she is taking your money.
my sp I saw her last week,
it came up between us.
would I pay her and not expect to fuck her,
can I fuck her, and not pay her.
we know and trust each other enough to have this discussion and not let it come between us.
we need money to live, we all have bills to pay, its not really that upsetting to well sell yourself for sex,, I think
but if im such a good guy and all that, what do I pay,
its a question that really has no answer,
because I have helped kids and wife out financially and others, so why not her, were friends she has bills
like I said you can go on in circles forever in this.
the answer lies somewhere in your heart.