Alone?

[the old maxx50]

Have you ever noticed how very alone we each are in this world .. all most 7 billion people .. but we each are truly alone with in our selves

Who can we let in to those inner thoughts , even those every day moments when we walk a lone down a hall through a parking garage or even down a crowed street .. but even there we are a lone ..

I spend much of my time in life alone .. always have .. These days .. i live in a 100 unit 1o story condo building where half the units are seldom occupied , and very seldom see any one in the halls or elevators .. and if i do i don't know them well ...
I spend some nights in the lounge watching TV a few time there are others playing pool but for the most part i am all ways alone .. The watch man come by at 12 to lock up but i am allowed to stay .. I am alone there as long as i want tobe ..

I notice as i come in to the underground parking there is usually know one .. i have it all to my self I listen to my footsteps as i walk to the elevator , wait for the car to come down and listen to the sound as it goes up to my floor .. The door opens and I walk alone down the long hall my foot steps echo off the walls .. I am home to my empty suite , lone with my thoughts .. I may step out on the balcony and look out over the golf course first green . In the nigh it is dark and empty .. the sound of frogs from the pond fill the air ,and sometime the voices from other suitsarond me But i am a lone ..

 

[bigguy]

Yo old maxx50:

Your post has a poignant vibe to it. You sound very much as if you are having personal problems? If so, have you considered seeking professional help? This post resonates as an "appeal" for attention/assistance. If brooding over personal issues is increasingly becoming a depressing experience, you have to act on these symptoms. To ignore regular mood swings that flirt with deepening sadness/depression, would be a mistake. If you feel as you state NOW (glorious sunny weather), how will you feel in mid-winter with much more depression-inducing weather with which to deal on a daily basis. Good luck.

bigguy

 

[sevenofnine]

at one time i was very alone.
my choice i never went to school never saw or talked to anyone really.
my choice i just could not deal with stuff going on at home.

eventually i wanted family stuff like everyone has,
it was hard i was so socially awkard. it took years

now im never alone,
i base it on the fact that everyone i meet i look in there eyes and acknowledge in some small way them as a person and life is good,

you know people are social, not everyone but most people are very social, give them a chance make them feel comfortable and they will be your friend,
i think that is it to just accept them who they are and there right to be who they are. don't at all think your better then any one because your not. were all in this together and were all equal.

and as far as someone to tell my inner most thoughts and secrets to.
my sp,
i don't really know why, but when i met her something went off in my head i would never have any secrets from her,
and i haven't i will tell her anything, and have,
there is just a trust between us, like i have with no one.

but i don;t know its easy,
even women, guys lament all the time, how hard women are to find, its just very easy to laugh and to smile and be around them,

i think it comes down to yourself the person you see in the mirror, be ok with who you are, and happy with the guy you see in the mirror, and it all flows from there,

no one is perfect we all mess up fuck up, but i think sometimes you do things that last with you forever, it just eats away at you, you have to make peace with that,
and find happiness from with in, then it just flows out ward,

 

[badbadboy]

Get a dog if you have the time and desire to take good care of it.

Walking dogs always opens yourself up to talking with other dog owners. People will always stop to talk to you with your best friend.

My normal long walk done at a brisk pace takes an hour. I have sometimes taken twice that time just by stopping to talk to people.

My dogs have helped me through some lonely times.

 

[badbadboy]

Was that you I met in the park yesterday??

I wish

My walks have been early AM and late PM so the dogs don't suffer in the heat.

 

[the old maxx50]

No worries to those that may have concern .. I was only making an observation of moments in my life .. As i have said many time i am a loner .. i embrace the lonely time.. The walk down a long empty hall is a time of contemplation ,, and i have had much time to contemplate ..

I have family i see all the time ,, i have a few friends that i an see and talk to when ever i have the urge .. I have had dogs and cats ..and i enjoy the sunny days ,, and seeing nature talking with the animals . . But i am a lone .. there have been few personal bonds made with others .. and those i have .. often they are as much a loner as I am .. with their own issues .. that I may understand and lend a hand with . But that is all we have .

I can say there is know one that knows me .. and maybe i am not comfortable enough with other to allow that to happen .
Certainly it get to me some time and yet all my efforts to get out there among others .. has had is limited success My work , hobbies and just the times i spend a the pubs or seeing the country side .. have brought new people in ti my life ,, only to have them be gone , down another path , other interests , family life and death ..

I embrace it all . because i to can look in the eyes of those i meet , listen to their word and know that so many of us are alone much of the time ... Not physically , life is all around , family , friends , nabours and all those we pass by .. Yes they just pass by and through our thoughts and life .. and in the end we are a lone with our selves more then we would like . That is the way it is ,, you may think you are all ways with others , all way some one around , at work , on the street , and family at home .. You here them , talking , and playing .. and you have physical contact with them for a short while . Then you are a lone again .. .

I know for me there are days i can 't wait to see a friend to talk and walk and enjoy some time together. The the time ends ,and we each go on our way , to do other things , see other people ,, and possibly won't see each other for days , or week ,, some i won't see for months or years .. When it come to those i love it leave s a lonely spot in my heart that only they can fill.

 

[blazejowski]

 

[jesuschrist]

I have the opposite problem.... I wish people would just leave me the fuck alone! That includes calls and texts from females! And Facebook! I should kill my account on that stupid thing.

I would love to hole up somewhere for a month and just bring some girl over once every couple of days for a couple of hours, then have her leave.

 

[InTheBum]

I am actually the opposite to OldMaxx...I see between 3 to 8 people a day at work and to me...that is far too many. I enjoy being left alone when it comes to the workplace.

 

[87112]

Maxx go work in a office where everywhere wants to be in your biz and if you dont fit the family profile your fucked. Than you will want your freedom and take long vacations away from people.

 

[Aleister Crowley]

alone is the price i pay for my FREEDOM