A Final Poon, Angst! - (from other Canada section)

[perbvan0]

Greetings to all,

I recently had my final (perhaps??) pooning session. The session was glorious. Accompanied shower with BBBJ, BBBJ with massage on the bed, CG, Mish (deep and delicious), Doggy, finish. Chatted with the sp for a little while, asked her when she arrived in Vancouver, has she travelled anywhere else, stuff like that. I noticed a growing problem while I was talking to her. I could feel a strong connection with her ... now I have seen maybe 15-20 other sps before her, and there was never any connection. I have seen her twice so far and I'm scared that I might do something like offer personal time outside of the sessions (bf/gf type of stuff).

Does this happen to anyone?

I have a nice income, I'm well educated, and actually I'm crazy about this sp. I feel like I'm going nuts right now fantasizing about her. The rest of the world could have burned down around me, I wouldn't have given a shit, I had an appointment to keep. I had to calm myself down before I went up to her apartment. Interestingly, I have absolutely no judgement about her career. None. I feel lucky just to have spent the time I had with her.

Is this how the best sps make their clients feel?

I would feel like a real shill if I disclosed her name. She is magnificant though, as previously articulated by many of the regulars on this website. I'm just an average joe (in all ways), but she made me truly feel like friggin Hercules.

I mentioned earlier that that was my last (?) poon. I'm afraid of what I'll say if I see her again. Shit, I never thought I'd feel all this adolescent angst ever again. Damn, I think I now know what angst really means. Before I left, she was putting on my clothes and smiling at me and playing around. I'm thinking that if I make some selfish proposal like start a relationship, I would be crossing over the line that keeps her safely away from emotional attachment and professional dissatisfaction.

Sorry for the rant ... in short, I need to stop this before I ruin her enjoyment of her work, and before I fall deeper for this sp. I am interested in any stories of sps having relationships (names not required of course) and how they made it work. The idea seems ludicrous to me; perhaps there is someone who can graduate me from this listless, rambling ignorance.

Restless in Vancouver

 

[not2old]

Nice post. I think that we have all had some type of feelings like this, most not to the same extent as this though.

My first thought is to tell her you have feelings so that she can let you down and it can be the start of getting over it. I'm not sure how this will make her feel though. That is important.

The problem that I would have if I just walked away is that I would keep thinking "what if".

I think that there was thread like this a couple of weeks ago.

Good luck

 

[memyselfandI]

I would feel like a real shill if I disclosed her name.

Ummm....nothing to do with being a shill in this case man. If you are having real feelings for an SP, I don't think you should mention her name period, shill or no shill. Just a thought.

 

[Willingham]

Been there - done that. BIG MISTAKE - you will just get hurt in the end. If you keep seeing her, you will start to get jealous and think about all the other guys she is having sex with - it just might drive you a bit coockoo.

I am in my 6th month at Trembling Hills rehab for xpooners that fell in love...

 

[perbvan0]

Been there - done that. BIG MISTAKE - you will just get hurt in the end. If you keep seeing her, you will start to get jealous and think about all the other guys she is having sex with - it just might drive you a bit coockoo.

I am in my 6th month at Trembling Hills rehab for xpooners that fell in love...

Hmmm, can't say that I have this problem. I am not concerned at all about the number of sexual partners she has every day (a substantial number, I am fairly certain). She is a fine sexy individual, talented at her craft.

I have no wish to see her abstain on my account because she enjoys her work, for the time being anyway. Personally, I would feel slighted if someone told me to stop doing the work that I enjoy.

Perhaps I would be just a waste of her time. Probably she doesn't need a listening ear, a sympathetic eye, a soft hand of encouragement. I feel that she does need these things, and more, and asking her out on a "date" (no sex) to open up these channels of communication would be of benefit to her, even moreso for myself. I know, I'm a sap, but this sp has been spectacular in effortlessly stealing most of my waking moments.

I really wish there was another way. I have tried to get this issue resolved through various innocuous ways, all resulting in utter failure. Worst case scenario: she thinks I'm a nutjob and sends me packing. I think it would take me about two hours to realise I'm not what she needs.

Let me reiterate, I am not concerned to any appreciable degree about her profession. I just want to know if I can be a companion in the most human way possible. Besides, I think there are far worse professions that exemplify the depravity of man.

Peace!

 

[DQ Guy]

Singing to myself

dhun dun dun dun
Another one bites the dust
And another ones gone
and another ones gone
Another one bites the dust

duhn dun dun dun dun

can;t give yeah too much shit for falling for her,
If you want to continue in the future why not ask her for a coffee date??
or just let it be and continue on with someone else.

 

[Validator]

If its buggin u that much then ask her out. But beware that when things are new (esp in terns of who u are falling for), they can do absolutely no wrong and that person is perfect. That wears off eventually..so keep that in mind. Maybe 6 mths down the road, you WILL mind her current occupation. Good luck!

 

[perbvan0]

Liking the feedback

Hey all,

Liking the comments. I am getting the impression that most of you perberators have been through this before. Hey, I'm just as much a neanderthal when things get hot as the next perberator; seeing the bobbing head, the tight body bouncing, the moans and gripping, the gasps, the round two/three/four (more?), until she can't take no more ... damn, that's the shit, for sure. I thought that was all a caveman like me could hope for.

Something is wrong with me though. It is like a "sensitivity chip" was plugged in.

I know I know I'm in deep shit. Keep on smacking me on the head, maybe normal programming will come back.

 

[Aeiyah]

I am getting the impression that most of you perberators have been through this before. Hey, I'm just as much a neanderthal when things get hot as the next perberator; seeing the bobbing head, the tight body bouncing, the moans and gripping, the gasps, the round two/three/four (more?), until she can't take no more ... damn, that's the shit, for sure. I thought that was all a caveman like me could hope for.

Something is wrong with me though. It is like a "sensitivity chip" was plugged in.

Pretty much every pooner has developed feelings for an SP and vice versa at some time. The SP/client relationship automatically puts up a barrier of no expectations beyond what happens for the time that you have paid. That's not to say that a relationship of some sort isn't possible. In most cases it ain't gonna happen. The one thing you need to think hard about is has she actually given you any signals that she's interested in more than a simple client/sp relationship. Has she done or said anything that wasn't expected. Is a relationship with an SP something that you really want or is it the lack of blood in the brain talking. Emotions have a way of making you not think clearly.

 

[Cosmo]

I am not concerned at all about the number of sexual partners she has every day (a substantial number, I am fairly certain). She is a fine sexy individual, talented at her craft.

I have no wish to see her abstain on my account because she enjoys her work, for the time being anyway. Personally, I would feel slighted if someone told me to stop doing the work that I enjoy.

BUDDY... you're a CLIENT!

She's good at what she does!

She did what you paid her to do.

Just 'cause many of the other's you have paid, didn't do the job as well, shouldn't change that.

You paid for a service, service was provided.

Move on.

 

[perbvan0]

BUDDY... you're a CLIENT!

She's good at what she does!

She did what you paid her to do.

Just 'cause many of the other's you have paid, didn't do the job as well, shouldn't change that.

You paid for a service, service was provided.

Move on.

Heh, you're right. Your logic works in a contractual sense. However, this thread has caused some other sps to respond to me privately, to let me know that they are also involved in a similar scenario.

Seems like this kind of crazy stuff happens more than I realised.

 

[BJhunter]

Not me, I'm a man of steel.

As soon as I fnished cumming on her face, it's on to the next one...the next great cocksucker!

 

[trackstar]

Heh, you're right. Your logic works in a contractual sense. However, this thread has caused some other sps to respond to me privately, to let me know that they are also involved in a similar scenario.

Seems like this kind of crazy stuff happens more than I realised.

Dude, they contacted you in private for a reason, to keep it private

 

[FunSugarDaddy]

Trust me when I tell you a SD-DB relationship this can easily get amplified.

At the end of the day you have to put this all in perspective. I've actually flat our told the girl I was seeing for a couple of years that I care about her as much as I possibly can within the context of our relationship. But if you cross the line, reality sets in and then all hell breaks out.

One of the benefits of these type of relationships is knowing what you're going to get, sex, plain and simple. If you cross that line then what happens. you get into fights and you don't want to have sex for reason x or reason y and you bring this all to bed with you..who needs all that crap?

I personally think the girl I was seeing use to want to get away from her boyfriend as much as I wanted to get away from my SO and just enjoy the simplicity of having good ol' fashion sex.

 

[mimi]

The Golden Rule

Taught to me by a most wonderful Madame:
Never date your client...ever!
I have done anyway, on two occasions, and discovered the hard way, that the fantasy wears thin very quickly. The 'time' a woman shares with her client has a beginning and an end; she can turn on the charm and put on the Sunday face knowing, like any professional entertainer, that when he exits stage left she can let down her hair and relax (pass a little wind etc..).

It is difficult to make someone feel like a million dollars 24 hrs a day...think of that from her perspective...when a relationship is established in this way, with escort protocol, a woman will struggle to still be "on" all the time and is less likely to be as honest and candid as she could have if you had met on natural terms...it's tough coming off a pedestal and becoming an ordinary girlfriend.

I've had some situations where clients were becoming very fixated on our "relationship" and somehow believing that I was entertaining them at my own behest and not because they called me. The agency I worked for was very sensitive to these situations and at a word from me would switch the client over to a new girl. This is more difficult for an independent woman, and one of the many reasons agencies are handy to have.

I honestly love every one of my clients! Just the way Elvis loves his fans and Martha Stewart loves her audience.

I was always told, growing up, that all men want from women is sex. (yippee)Now, if you are already having sex with her, the most intimate of intercourses, and you can call her up and have it when you want, what more do you want? (The answer to that question is also the answer to the question: "why would someone pay take a girl to Mexico?...")...

just one more thing...our behaviour is dictated by a lot of stuff happening in our brains that we are not aware of. You may be going through a phase of life and something happened with her that acted as a trigger on your subconscious unleashing all this 'emotion'. Are you ready to get married and settle down maybe?

O.k. I'm done....ciao and good luck...

 

[john23]

There is definitely some validity to the idea that there is a special quality to the SP / Pooner relationship. Its so formalized its very easy to get in sync with an open minded person.

I've been in two situations where we both developed feelings for each other neither really worked out but both were more than worthwhile. I noticed in the second instance that she actually was very annoyed that I was paying her for sessions - but frankly, if you are broke, expect to be paid.

The best ones were where we simply became friends. I really miss those relationships (both retired unfortunately) - however I could do without the play by play descriptions of their relationships with their SOs ...

 

[mimi]

second thoughts

After posting my reply I realized that my take on this situation is entirely from my own perspective. The reality is many women do enter this field of work with the purpose of finding a husband. In general they enter the highest end of the 'workplace' and seek out eligible (rich) bachelors. I recall a certain Madame screaming into the phone ..."this is not a dating service" to a young woman who made off with a well heeled client...

I was forgetting when I made my first comment that I just finished reading an autobiography of a Madame who reigned in the twenties, and she recalls in her book those rare individuals who came into the profession with a certain panache and left it within a year or two to become the wife of a well placed politician, or CEO.

But, remember these women were very discreet and did not display their personal photos over the internet. I think it would be difficult to leave your past behind if it was pasted in a pop up ad.

So you need to discover, perhaps in a casual sort of conversation, what her aspirations are?