Drama Drama Drama Onyx.
For anyone who would care to read it - a little about me.
I am orginally from California and only in Vancouver for a year. I was moved around a lot as a kid and it gave me a mad wanderlust in my adult years. I love travel, meeting new people, and expericing all that life has to offer.
The only down side is that I tend to keep people at quite the distance. On top of this on one side of my family I have the missionary brother (not potition, actual servant of God) and the youth pastor brother, on the other I have the sister that died in jail and the brother who was kicked out of the army forn repeated unexcusable behavior - do you have any idea what an asshole you have to be to get kicked out of the US Army for it???
At a young age I learned to only share part of myself with various people because the people around me were accepting of very different things.
This is not a pity party - I like me thanks much. However it takes me years to really let someone in - only I never stick around that long. I usually have my family, and the few friends I am no more than a couple hours away from - but not here. I am a long long way from home.
I came to the forums to connect with people. Yes I also wanted to get bussiness as I am an escort - but I wandered over to BDSM for personal reasons not professional ones.
Only on with the annoymity of the internet do I feel like I can be all aspects of me without the fear of judgement. (yes judgement happens, but with out serious concequenses so who cares?)
So yes sometimes I am inconsistant. Yes sometimes I don't know what I want. Yes sometimes I am unclear. This in and of itself should be proof that I am genuine. How many people do you know who are all black and white?
Shades of grey baby.
Anyhow - I am not too concerned, eh, it's the internet. But since I am new and Onyx who believes I am not genuine is not I wanted to throw this out there.
This is not to continue drama nor to start a forum war.
I am here to
1) learn - yes I could do this on the internet all by my onsie but then why the hell am I a member of a forum board? I like people. That's why I do what I do - I want to hear from, respond to, and interact with people not google.
2) make connections - and on the BDSM side not so much bussiness connections but personal ones. I am only 24 and am a firm beleiver of learning from the mistakes of others so I need not make them. I love hearing about both positive and negative experiences of others. I love differing opinons - as long as it doesn't get in muckraking territory.
---- last but not least.
I'm a girl. I think I am a sub - but never been in a "community" before so please forgive any lapse in the correct use of terms. And it's true. I can't spell for shit. Kind of sad really. Was going to be an English teacher for a long time - now I fancy myself a writer, at least that is what I am in school for. generally I have various people to proof read my stuff to avoid the spelling thing, but doesn't really work out for here. If it bugs you please consider avoiding my posts.
I hope everyone had a beautiful Thursday, because I sure did.
For anyone who would care to read it - a little about me.
I am orginally from California and only in Vancouver for a year. I was moved around a lot as a kid and it gave me a mad wanderlust in my adult years. I love travel, meeting new people, and expericing all that life has to offer.
The only down side is that I tend to keep people at quite the distance. On top of this on one side of my family I have the missionary brother (not potition, actual servant of God) and the youth pastor brother, on the other I have the sister that died in jail and the brother who was kicked out of the army forn repeated unexcusable behavior - do you have any idea what an asshole you have to be to get kicked out of the US Army for it???
At a young age I learned to only share part of myself with various people because the people around me were accepting of very different things.
This is not a pity party - I like me thanks much. However it takes me years to really let someone in - only I never stick around that long. I usually have my family, and the few friends I am no more than a couple hours away from - but not here. I am a long long way from home.
I came to the forums to connect with people. Yes I also wanted to get bussiness as I am an escort - but I wandered over to BDSM for personal reasons not professional ones.
Only on with the annoymity of the internet do I feel like I can be all aspects of me without the fear of judgement. (yes judgement happens, but with out serious concequenses so who cares?)
So yes sometimes I am inconsistant. Yes sometimes I don't know what I want. Yes sometimes I am unclear. This in and of itself should be proof that I am genuine. How many people do you know who are all black and white?
Shades of grey baby.
Anyhow - I am not too concerned, eh, it's the internet. But since I am new and Onyx who believes I am not genuine is not I wanted to throw this out there.
This is not to continue drama nor to start a forum war.
I am here to
1) learn - yes I could do this on the internet all by my onsie but then why the hell am I a member of a forum board? I like people. That's why I do what I do - I want to hear from, respond to, and interact with people not google.
2) make connections - and on the BDSM side not so much bussiness connections but personal ones. I am only 24 and am a firm beleiver of learning from the mistakes of others so I need not make them. I love hearing about both positive and negative experiences of others. I love differing opinons - as long as it doesn't get in muckraking territory.
---- last but not least.
I'm a girl. I think I am a sub - but never been in a "community" before so please forgive any lapse in the correct use of terms. And it's true. I can't spell for shit. Kind of sad really. Was going to be an English teacher for a long time - now I fancy myself a writer, at least that is what I am in school for. generally I have various people to proof read my stuff to avoid the spelling thing, but doesn't really work out for here. If it bugs you please consider avoiding my posts.
I hope everyone had a beautiful Thursday, because I sure did.
