I can't say i am the best qualified for looking after others , because i have all ways had some one to look after me . But those days are quickly coming to an end .
On the other hand i have be looking after other peoples needs , usually money but for the last few years .. those of a baby .
She is not mine and i can't say i have the skills to be a father , but I try to take care of her when i am there .. I have to say I don't all ways want to do it , and i don't really have to ,, i chose to .. It seem to be some need in me to make a different in this world .. by stepping up to help where others don't .. .
In this case I am to old to be in a relationship with the mother , not what she is looking for , and i am not even sure if i could be the provider for any long term ..
But the guys she does pick don't seem to have it either .. no commitment to her or her child . Few do as much as i do . It seem to be part of the nature cycle of life which i missed out on by not being in relationships earlier in my life , not marring , having children .. and yet now . as my sister and friends are looking after grand children i find my self being a father ? grand father to a child also .. It some times feel right.
I help others , usually they are the escorts i have meet and know .. and i am sure i get taken advantage of .. but I am going into it with my eyes wide open and they have been opened even more with what i have experienced .. and i am a lot richer in experience for it which i would never had if i did not walk down this path .
What i have found is so many people are willing to use others but not step up to truly helping others with out expecting some thing in return ,, and i am not much better some time .. i just don't insist on repayment .. but i still might like it some times .. Thankfully i am usually satisfied with doing the right thing for the right reason .. and hope that my kindness and sacrifice makes a little different in someones life ,enough to change the future for the better..
In a child's life sometime being there as a the father they don't have will make that different s .. I hope i can do a better job.
On the other hand i have be looking after other peoples needs , usually money but for the last few years .. those of a baby .
She is not mine and i can't say i have the skills to be a father , but I try to take care of her when i am there .. I have to say I don't all ways want to do it , and i don't really have to ,, i chose to .. It seem to be some need in me to make a different in this world .. by stepping up to help where others don't .. .
In this case I am to old to be in a relationship with the mother , not what she is looking for , and i am not even sure if i could be the provider for any long term ..
But the guys she does pick don't seem to have it either .. no commitment to her or her child . Few do as much as i do . It seem to be part of the nature cycle of life which i missed out on by not being in relationships earlier in my life , not marring , having children .. and yet now . as my sister and friends are looking after grand children i find my self being a father ? grand father to a child also .. It some times feel right.
I help others , usually they are the escorts i have meet and know .. and i am sure i get taken advantage of .. but I am going into it with my eyes wide open and they have been opened even more with what i have experienced .. and i am a lot richer in experience for it which i would never had if i did not walk down this path .
What i have found is so many people are willing to use others but not step up to truly helping others with out expecting some thing in return ,, and i am not much better some time .. i just don't insist on repayment .. but i still might like it some times .. Thankfully i am usually satisfied with doing the right thing for the right reason .. and hope that my kindness and sacrifice makes a little different in someones life ,enough to change the future for the better..
In a child's life sometime being there as a the father they don't have will make that different s .. I hope i can do a better job.
