lessons learned

[sevenofnine]

i don't know how to say this, i might ruffle some feathers, but what the fuck,

there is a kind of girl out there that basiclly relies on emotions feelings to keep you coming back

and then there is a kind of girl that relies on good service,
and i suppose a whole bunch of girls that fall some where in the middle some were

im not saying either girl is wrong.

when i started this hobby, i found a girl that basicly relied on emotions feelings.
you know but it was what i needed,
i was scared nervous uncomfortable
it worked for me it really did.

but then as i became more comfortable in this hobby,
i found the girl realy couldn't meet my physical needs.
well she could but she really didn't want to
and i felt loyal and connected to her,
i stayed with her longer then i should have,

all i have to say is when that voice in your head tells you to move on,
move on.
unless the girl is giving you your money back, what your feeling doesn't really matter,
there are lots of girls out there,

i have been in this hobby three years, i have heard lots of stories about guys falling in love with an sp, spending a fortune trying to win her over,
lives ruined, marriages ruined,
suicide attempts.
and i have only heard a fraction of what goes on.
be honest with your self,
what do you want from this experiance,

i came in, to this, didn't want any connections, im married,
just wanted a physical experiance,
found a lady who made me comfortable, in an emotional way, which was nice, ok, i needed it for awhile. but i should have moved on long ago, and i didn't.

with this emotional girl, i barely managed one shot on goal and was checking out cialus. and wondered about vfm and how much she wanted to actually please me.

with the enegizer bunny that i have mentioned,
my last session with her was amazing simple fucking amazing.
with no cialus. i managed two shots on goal and was going for a third,

and we talked and we laughed and we fucked all the way through.
and with the girl who just relied on emotions, we talked lots, laughed some and fucked little.

don't get me wrong, there is a place for a girl that is your emotional secure place, your refuge from the storm, i needed her, i needed to talk,
i have had alot of guilt and issues with this hobby, and she was very comfortable to be with. i don't regret being with her,
but there is also a time to move on.

and if your soul reason for being in this hobby is emotional comfort and security,
you need therapy or a cat.

 

[sevenofnine]

i will not give her name,
she is not on this board so it doesn't matter,

and to be honest with you,
if a guy is honest with himself he knows. he doesn't need to be told, he knows himself its time to move on.

i did,
i just didn't,

like i said, when i came into this hobby, i needed a lady like that.
i needed to talk,
i needed to talk lots

i did talk to her,
i talked lots to her and she listened,
and really i thank her for that.

the energizer bunny was the first lady i saw in this hobby,
but she scared the hell out of me,

i needed that lady, and there are guys out there that do, need a lady like that, need someone to listen to them and to talk to.
i have heard several ladies make the comment,
they have guys that don't do anything they just talk,

and if a guy needs to talk because he is lonely, or has to work things out,
sp's are great listeners.
i was there once,

trust me, i was there once, and i needed some one to hold and just shut up and listen to me.
i tallked lots to this lady, i don't regret it,
it is just when i switched, was all talked out.
she wouldn't come with me, and satisfy my physical needs.

and i stayed longer with her then i should.

and a guy can fall in love with a girl that just fucks them silly,
its not really fair to drag any girls name through the mud.
especially when she cann't defend her self.

and im not going to.

and like i said,

if a guy is honest with himself he will know when its time to move on.

 

[HB40]

if a guy is honest with himself he will know when its time to move on.

It's time to move on then sevenofnine, you can't keep lamenting.

Sounds like your new fave has batteries included and no assembly required, you gotta love those energizer bunnies.

 

[blazejowski]

I loved these two poems, 7of9.

Hit the nail on the head with that one, sadly.
All you need to complete the image is a cup of coffee in your hand, sitting on a stool, wearing a turtleneck sweater....