Follow Up On JessikaXXX

[vanessa kelly]

Well people of Perbland it is with great sadness that I am typing this right now. As some of you are aware the one and only JessicaXXX went on a little hiatus as a dream of hers had come true, she was going to be a mom.

Yesterday Sexy Nina Leone, Tabitha, Lavina (I told you that you would love her when I introduced you) and I loaded up in Ninas vehicle and headed to the Ferry to attend the Funeral of one special little baby boy.

I remember when Jess first found out she was pregnant, it was the best thing that ever happened to her, something she had yearned for.

Those who know Jess, know that when she puts her mind into something there is no stopping her and she made the decision to make some drastic changes in her life, "having a life inside you does that" she said to me.

Jess went full term with her pregnancy and ended up being induced 1 day after her due date, long story short she ended up needing an emergency c-section so much so that she felt when they made the first incision, she gave birth to a very very beautiful 9lb 6oz blue eyed, blond baby boy, I am sad to say that there were severe complications to do with baby's oxygen and he passed away in his mothers arms after a few short hours in this world.

This is a very devastating time for Jessika and all the thoughts and prayers of strength we can send her would be so awesome ... I know that she has touched many people on this board and visa verse (no pun intended...lol...) and she wanted me to let the board know what has taken place. If you would like to send your condolences please do so in this thread,

Well I suppose thats about it ....

Vanessa Kelly

 

[sinfulltimez]

My heart goes out to any parent who has lost a child in their life.

Cherish the time you got to spend with the little guy and always remember............no one can ever take that away from you.

Hope he is in heaven playing with the other kids and looking down to his mother for just being her.

 

[badbadboy]

I am saddened for Jess's loss of her newborn baby.

R I P young one.

My thoughts are with Jess and I hope she can carry on with such a terrible loss.

Smoke and prayers sent.

 

[NMR]

What a very sad story. A grim reminder that life can be very hard and difficult to understand at times.

Sincerest condolences to Jess

 

[visiting]

So sorry to hear, let me offer my condolences. I can't imgine how sad you are right now, Can't be easy, wish I could say something to cheer you up. I am happy to know you have a good group of girlfriends who will be by your side and help you, yes, you have a AWESOME entourage of girlfriends! As I think of you, I just think of that J'3X smile, you and baby will be in my prayer's tonight!

Wish you all the best!

V

 

[lenharper]

Dear Jessika: I am so sorry for you. You do not deserve this. Although our meeting was fleeting you made a lasting impression on my life. Your kindness, decency and spirit are a marvel. What you are going through is unimaginable to me. Thank you, Vanessa, for starting this thread. Jessica, please remember that you have done so much good for so many people and that you have value. I know those words are hollow now, and this is not time for a "pain will pass" homily but you should hear them. I'm so sorry for you
lenharper

 

[vanessa kelly]

I can 't say I know exactly what jess is going through but I miss carried at three months last year, it was very hard for me. Please send my love to Jessicaxxx she is a strong lady ... xo

Kisses Melina*

nope I dont think you can .... thank you everyone for your kind wishes and thoughts I know it will touch her heart
Vanessa Kelly

 

[diamondd5243]

I have never met her but her presence is certainly felt on this board and it is clear she has indeed touched many members. Please accept my condolences for your loss Jxxx. If the outpouring of support here is any indication, you have a strong network to lean on, and may you come away from this situation a stronger person.

 

[Pirate Code2]

There is nothing that could have prepared me for that little blue box. The overwhelming unfairness of life.. it is and always will be so very hard to accept. There are parts of me that really want to get angry and find some kind of way to blame the hospital or doctor. I know Jess did everything so right. She worked so hard to make things perfect. Her family and her partner were right there with her doing everything right. There is another way to view this horrible event, and I must focus on that.

Here is what was written on the funeral remembrance card:

A letter to Jess's baby..

From the moment you made your presence known, you started a miracle. You saved your mom and dad. You filled an emptiness in their hearts that gave them a new will to make themselves healthy, and make themselves the best mom and dad they could possibly be for you. They changed everything about themselves in anticipation of your arrival, including a move across the ocean! They talked to you every day while you were growing. They could tell how funny and smart you were and you made your mommy laugh often!

The day you arrived was both the happiest and the saddest day in their lives and the lives of all those who loved you. If wishes could have made you stay you would surely have been here now.

God must have needed you for something very special. Something that just couldn't wait a lifespan of eighty years or even just a few days. God needed you for something right now!

Jess's baby, you brought so many people together. People that hadn't seen each other in a very long time, that without you, we may have never seen again. You have cracked open the tightly closed up hearts around you, and filled them with your love.

Jess's baby, you are a miracle, and our angel from God. We know you are in Heaven with those that we love and have gone before you. We can hardly wait until the day we see you again in Heaven. Until then, we know that you are our special angel, watching over us.

Rest in peace, sweet baby boy.

xoxoxoxoxoxo

I have to say my heart was so warmed by the welcoming acceptance and appreciation I felt from Jess's family. She and her man are in very good hands. I was also convinced that this tragedy will only make that brilliant light that shines from that wonderful woman even brighter.

The kind generous and caring words you are offering here are most certainly wonderful. I know Jess will look at this thread one day and will be overwhelmed by the beautiful support you are giving her..

Love you all..
xoxo
Nina

 

[Walk Softly]

My thoughts go out to you Jess.

In this age of miracles there is still so much we cannot change.

Be strong!

WS.

 

[Poseidon]

You were my little bean,
that was created in my womb.
I laid in bed at night excited,
and now I'm full of gloom.
I never understood how much
you could miss someone you never met.
And now my heart aches so bad,
that it fills me with regret.
Was there something I did wrong?
How could this come to be?
Your little face, your hands, your feet,
is something I'll never see.
I loved you oh so much,
its something that cannot be explained.
Now these feelings of anger and jealousy,
make me feel ashamed.
You are my angel baby,
and that I know is true.
God is holding you now,
and listening to you cue.
You are in Heaven looking down,
watching mommy cry.
I wish you were here,
but then I know that this is not goodbye.
Sarah Twigg

My deepest condolences and I hope you recover from such a tragedy.

 

[Caramel]

I am so very sorry to hear this, I remember the announcement of the pregnancy and reading about the baby shower on this forum...I was happy for her she seemed so excited, even though I don't know her except from her presence on this board.

This is extremely heartbreaking and I wish nothing but peace and love for you and your family, no one deserves to go through this. My deepest condolences hun, take care <3

 

[Surrey's Jewel]

Jessica I didn't offer my congrats at the news of your pregnancy because I don't know you personally and it felt fake to do so ... reading of this absolute tragedy is very different ..... as a woman and mother my heart is breaking for you right now ! My absolute deepest condolences to you and your family.

 

[PlayfulAlex]

As has been said, words cannot convey how sad I am for you, Jessika. My heart breaks for your loss, although we've never met. May you find healing within yourself and your support network to make it through each day. <3

 

[uncleg]

I know you have the friends to support you through this. Take care of yourself, Jess.

 

[tadolder]

So very very sad. My sincere condolences Jessica.

 

[susi]

i wished i could go with you guys and be there for the service.....

jess, you worked so hard to be ready for this and changed your entire life to meet the challenge. i am so sorry that this happened....i know what it meant to you....

you are a good person and a big part of this community, please call me for anything...

i love you.
susie

 

[chainsawman]

Such a sad thing to hear. Stay strong and use the people around you for the support you and your family will surely need. I immediately thought of the Eric Clapton song "Tears in Heaven", which I will now go listen to ,have a cry and be thankful I never had to experience something so tragic. So sorry!!

 

[VanessaofBC]

Well, that was not the happy news I think we were all expecting to hear.

Stay strong, Jess.

 

[adon100]

Deepest condolences. May God give her strength to face this tragedy.