My condolences, Jethro.
Asking for help is the hardest part. Most people are happy to help. I’m guilty of this myself and it’s difficult to change. Especially for those over 40 (I’m guessing) who were raised to be “tough.”
I’m curious about you guys that have never cum from oral. Are you from the younger porn generation, older? A wonderful blowjob is one of life’s finest things. Sometimes the big head gets in the way too.