gears of war said:
No dad didnt buy my first car I did. I do have a job. If you want to get on the topic of whats right and whats wrong try this one. Whats wrong is that after 21yrs of marriage 2 people at 1 point in time loved each other enough that they got married and had a boy and 21 yrs later they hate each other so much and are only concerned about who gets what and how much money etc etc etc they are totally forgetting that they are still a family and that I have things that I want to say and things that I want to say how I feel but I cant why cause they are too damn busy arguing and fighting all the time and have forgot about family values so p**s on my old man and his credit card. Do you get what i am saying know? In his eyes I dont even really exsist anymore AND TO BE QUITE HONEST I CAN ALMOST BET YOU THAT HE WISHES THAT I WAS LIVING WITH MY MOTHER INSTEAD!!! so thats why I am putting it on his credit card. Thats pretty brutul though right? (sorry if I was rude or offensive during any parts of this last comment by the way but I had to express my point and feelings on that last comment)
Well Kid, all I can say is if that is what you think of your old man, don't be surprised at his grand kid and how the grand kid gets along with HIS dad. Sure we all say it will be different for me, but most times it isn't.
I know that right now you feel that your dad OWES you, where in fact he has done his job of getting you from being born until you are old enough to be on your own. Which has passed by at least 2 years for you.
Sure your dad made and makes mistakes. I felt the same as you did at your age, we all do, its all most in our genes. The boy HAS to become better then the old man - that's evolution. BUT today my friend, I can't help but think about my dad, He died a long time ago. I try and remember ...what was Dad doing when he was my age, was he feeling like I am now?
I think, I wonder what kind of friend Dad would have been if we were the same age? And I think, you know he WAS OK, AND HE DID the best with what HE knew at the time.
And then I think, wow, I sure wasn't a nice son to have, I sure wasn't a person for him to know...I know he forgives me, because I know he knows, that sons can be like that to their dads ...its evolution ya know.....But in the end the loss is mine, I feel the pain and sadness of not having the relationship I could have had.
One more thought for you.....one day you'll have a family, dad will be over, you'll have a few drinks...and maybe you'll feel the need to 'set things right' or maybe you'll continue to live the lie....
You see, you are not getting back at him...but at yourself. Good luck cause life IS tough, for moms dads and kids...and just people everywhere.
