Ok, time to address some questions in the most honest way I can. She was always upfront and honest with me, even though the answers weren't what I wanted to hear. I will answer you all honestly in that spirit, no white knightism.
Fort Mac Guy: She just doesn't have feelings for others when they are clients. When she goes home, she doesn't want to think about clients at all. She does love her job and enjoys the sex, but it is always a YMMV. The last 2 times I was with her, was the probably the best sex of my life honestly. It was mutual also. I don't know how it affected her personally, I hope not negatively.
Slamma: I disagree on point 1, but tend to agree on 2 and 3. Some ladies have great relationships with their SOs. I don't think it is just about money all the time, but that may be being naive. I've gone and just chatted with her for lots of time, shared a smoke and just talked like friends.. without paying a dime.
Sperminator: I have spent probably more time with her in the past year than most people spend with their wives in a few months. I know her, and she knows me.
Vienna: Thanks, everyone is different, we should make that understood.
Schizo_man: I was hurting, still am. I shouldn't have done that, like you said. You are right there. I'm not stalker material though, I just want her happy.
Luvpussy: Nice to hear from someone who it worked out for. Grats on being one of the few.
Sperminator again: I already know I am pathetic. Thanks though for reinforcing that. I do love her, it isn't something I have control over. I am an emotional person. However, I'm not creepy, would never do anything to make her upset.
HB40: You've always understood me bro, thanks for the words. Hope retirement works for you and give your SO a hug for me.
Cherry: I don't know what to say. It's been 10 months. I wish it would never end, but I know it had to sooner or later. I just thought it would be later. I will always cherish our time together. I am sorry if it took a part of you sometimes. I just thought I was helping you financially. I will always respect your wishes as I respect you. My quirky beautiful final fantasy.