from experiance,
its tough to be an animal and a sensitive nice guy at the same time,
so no in good conscience you can't lead a double life.
but i think, at times you can just say fuck it,
and do what you got to do,
much like a hockey player, who is a super nice guy, just a big teddy bear, but get him on the ice, and he morphs into something fierce.
i brought all my guilt and senseitivities with me into this hobby,
and believe me it failed miserable.
what do they call it comparmentalization or something,
first thing you have to do, is make a choice, then leave your guilt your conscience the hell out of it.
the cards have been dealt, just play them out at that point. and go with it,
