Hello everyone! I am new to this board but not new to this hobby, however, an experience this week has made me decide to quit for good!
I have been involved in this world for over ten years - started a couple of years after getting married. (No kids by the way)
I have been with girls all over the world. China, Singapore, Hong Kong, Korea, Japan, England, all over the USA and Canada and of course right here in Vancouver. I consider myself a gentleman and don't mind spending money - as I am fortunate to have it. I have had some wonderful encounters however none of them made up for my bad marraige. Until recently.
I met a woman who found herself stuck in Vancouver in need of money. We really hit it off! Our meetings became very much like real lovers - in fact we did become real lovers. Of course we met mostly at the Agency she works for but did occassionally meet elsewhere. I have probably been with her 20 times over the last 3 months - at 200 a pop that is quite a lot - but as I said - I am fotunate that way. She is a woman trying to put her life together after a bad marriage and is in a strange country. We have had wonderful conversations and speak on the phone everyday. However, today when I went to see her at the agency she was "busy". While waiting, I went to the washroom and heard her in the room with her client "moaning and growning". Of course my heart broke.
Now many of you men will say I am very silly to get involved or to develop feelings but it can and does happen.
What I know is that this is a strange underworld of sex and passion and ALL of us involved are sad victims one way or the other.
I read the postings of girls like Lesley from LE and know that this girl really wants respect - how can this work give it to her. This must be a very difficult work to do. How to stay "professional" while doing the most 'personal" thing. Many of these girls have difficult and complicated lives.
The men - well some are strange or weird looking for control, too cheap to get a real girl friend or others are like me in bad marriages searching for some kind off distraction or happiness.
I know something for certain. When I have been in a relationship with someone I love I never never been interested in anyone else. Of course for some of us this hobby just becomes a bad habit!
After my experience today I relize that what I really want is love and passion not just heavy breathing. I am leaving my wife and will start my search for someone to love. I also think about my wife. I think she feels that I have always been faithful but she knows I have not been happy. She is still young enough to find someone else and she deserves the chance for love as well!
Well there is my blood on the carpet. Maybe it means something and maybe it doesn't. Nonetheless i am done with this hobby - on to deeper and more meaningful ventures!