wow, you have kind of a messed up view of things
My opinion, you make a big error in judgment if you project your feelings and perceptions on some one else.
This hobby was in a sense never for me. Just my value system.
My father was a rapist, I have kind of old school family value type system, where a man's charecter is everything he has nothing else.
I have guilt issues about doing this, paying a women for sex. Self esteem issues, because well Im paying a women to be with me.
Just the way I feel, this hobby, is not the best way to enjoy or explore your sexuality.
Does a man any kind of a man really need to pay anyone to be with him.
Life isn't perfect, I am not perfect, I was a pooner for ten years still am, wouldn't be if I didn't meet lady and her and me became friends.
She is my only hold to this hobby,
I enjoy seeing her, we talk about vacation together, we talk about growing old together.
If I am proud or happy about anything in this hobby its not the fact that I banged a hooker.
Whooped de do. Big fucking deal, I banged a hooker.
The only thing Im happy about and enjoy is the ladies I met and became regulars with became my friends.
I was never some creep they just fucked and there glad he is gone.
They ended up asking me, to stay and share there life.
It tells me I did something right in my life beside coming up with the three hundred bucks to pay her.