Man Mountain

One Day She'll Fly Away

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Originally posted 03-29-2011, 12:58 AM http://perb.ca/vbulletin/showthread....he-ll-Fly-Away

A few months ago, I learned that my all time favourite VIP dancer at the 5 had moved on. I hadn't seen her in a very long time. For quite a while I was still being told by other regular patrons that I've become friendly with that they had still seen her around and it seemed like my timing was just really off. But I personally hadn't even heard from her since around the time of the Olympics, so I was starting to suspect that she may have moved on. One night, I was there with a friend for his birthday and I asked one of the other VIP dancers who knows me pretty well whether "favourite VIP" was still around at all. And she informed me that "favourite VIP" had found employment in another part of the country in the industry that I knew from our conversations over the years that she had gone to school for.

Even though I had suspected that she had most likely moved on and I even had a new "first choice" VIP dancer for some months in her absence, I was surprised that the news hit me a lot harder than I thought it would. I mean, I was very happy for her that she achieved the goal that she set for herself. And I know that she had danced longer than she had originally planned to when the economy took a downturn, making even an entry level position in her chosen field much more difficult to find. But "favourite VIP" and I had years worth of rapport built up. You know, I don't really know what those intangible things are that make me feel like I have a "connection" with one lady but not with another who may be just as friendly, outgoing, personable and attractive. I only know that over the years, I had come to feel a fondness and affection for her that I can't deny. And, as I said, when I found out definitively that she had moved on, it hit me harder than I thought it would.

Anyway, I did my best to deal with it. Try to keep it in perspective. Focus my attentions on others. More than a few others even Just when I thought that I was coming to terms with it, I had a session with an SP that I had become fond of and during that session she hints at the idea that she wants to focus more on school and will be making her availability more limited. It sounded like she didn't want to come right out and say that she was moving on but it seemed like that was what she was getting at. Then another SP that I had enjoyed some time with posts a retirement thread. Then another dancer whom I felt was more like a friend also discusses with me how she's no longer feeling fulfilled by the business and is considering turning her focus more seriously towards her eductaion. Again, for each one, they want to move on for the right reasons and I wish each of them the best but it doesn't make it any easier seeing them go.

I remember a post from last year when an SP that I amdired a lot posted a retirement thread. In my opinion, she always had a way of bringing an interesting perspective and insight to a subject. I wish I could remember exactly what she posted now. I wish I could find it and reference it again but she had her handle and posting history removed when she left. But the gist of it was that for those of us who do build a rapport or "relationship" of sorts over a period, inherently, we know that the "relationships" in this business will come to an end. That's just the nature of it. But I also remember a post from another member, who has also seemingly had his handle and posts removed, where he mentioned being in "mourning of something that was never really there" when a favourite of his moved on.

Sometimes, I envy those of you who can compartmentalize your feelings when it comes to this. I only know that I can't do it completely. As I mentioned, I don't always feel the same level of "connection" for whatever reason but I can't help but feel some level of fondness for any woman who will share the type of intimacy with me that the women of this business have been willing to share with me. And I also can't help but be wistful about it every time someone that I've been fond of moves on even though I always wish them nothing but the best as they do.
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    If You're Gone

    You've seen her a couple of times now. She tells you she only plans to do this for another year.

    Or another lady seems to be "unavailable" for months at a time. Ultimately, she does advertise availability again but in the meantime you don't know if she's quit the business or not. Maybe you move on to somebody else in that time but you still hope that she'll be back again.

    Or yet another lady has posted that she's taking a break and will be back in a few months. Only she never returns.

  3. Man Mountain's Avatar
    Another One Bites the Dust

    Yet another SP posts that she's retiring from the business. Maybe you've seen her and would have liked to see her again. Or maybe she was just someone that you admired from her posts and hoped you might have a chance to meet one day.

  4. Man Mountain's Avatar
    More Than a Feeling

    "So many people have come and gone
    Their faces fade as the years go by
    Yet I still recall as I wander on
    As clear as the sun in the summer sky"

    "When I'm tired and thinking cold
    I hide in my music, forget the day
    And dream of a girl I used to know
    I closed my eyes and she slipped away"

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    I Wish You Well

  8. Man Mountain's Avatar
    She's Gone

    "Think I'll spend eternity in the city
    Let the carbon and monoxide choke my thoughts away
    The pretty bodies help dissolve the memories
    But they can never be what she once was to me"

  9. Man Mountain's Avatar
    Star Baby

    "And my heart is like a photograph...
    album
    Of all the good times and the bad...
    and I've had some
    Where I miss this girl...
    and I miss that girl...
    I don't miss that girl but...
    sometimes I miss this girl
    But you...
    You're my STAR, baby!"



  10. Man Mountain's Avatar
    An excellent post by SweetVIPs in another thread:

    Quote Originally Posted by SweetVIPs
    One thing I can say is that over the years I have learned girls come and go - and sometimes they even come back If you see someone you like - enjoy your time with them in the moment - have fun with eachother - like your never going to see eachother again... that's kinda part of the fun right?
    and hey if you do get to see them again - BONUS! - and enjoy those moments for what they are ... just remember its not forever !
  11. Man Mountain's Avatar
    Waiting for the End to Come

    Quote Originally Posted by Man Mountain
    I remember a post from last year when an SP that I amdired a lot posted a retirement thread. In my opinion, she always had a way of bringing an interesting perspective and insight to a subject. I wish I could remember exactly what she posted now. I wish I could find it and reference it again but she had her handle and posting history removed when she left. But the gist of it was that for those of us who do build a rapport or "relationship" of sorts over a period, inherently, we know that the "relationships" in this business will come to an end. That's just the nature of it. But I also remember a post from another member, who has also seemingly had his handle and posts removed, where he mentioned being in "mourning of something that was never really there" when a favourite of his moved on.
    Lately this one seems kind of appropriate in context as well:

  12. Man Mountain's Avatar
    Life Goes On

    From wilde on 04-04-2011, 05:03 PM

    Quote Originally Posted by wilde View Post
    MM, I feel for you man. The way I see it, when the SP wants to move on, we become a part of her life that she would like to leave behind. So don't be sad, take a moment to remember the good times and then life goes on...

  13. Man Mountain's Avatar
    An appreciated reminder from one time perb member haymitch on 12-02-2012. Thanks, man. Hope you're well, where ever you are and whatever you're up to these days

    Quote Originally Posted by haymitch
  14. cherise's Avatar
    extremely touching ,heartfelt post MM
  15. VanessaofBC's Avatar
    [COLOR="#FF0000"]awww, your a big softy deep down![/COLOR]