at the risk of posting to many times, and being accused of being a looser
to be honest any one that pays for it is a looser any way,
you know but were all looser, were all dysfunctional just in different ways.
had a nice time with my lady friend, as is the norm.
nothing nothing special
her and me some how need to talk,
we both have rather complicated lives
and I am very lucky that I have a friend in this, to trust and talk with,
its funny but she encourages me with my kids and wife to do what's right by them to make them happy, she suggested actually me and my wife should go away for a special weekend the two of us and recommended places.
I have been with sp's and they talk endlessly about there kids and their problems, but refuse to accept the fact that I have kids and family
but anyway we encourage each other and support each other in our separate lives.
and she tells me a lot about her life, some not very flattering stuff to be honest.
that is what I mean when I said sometimes being a friend with an sp, is not the best, you waste your time discussing each others life and emotionally being supportive and well the sessions is gone. or the mood is gone
but we have no clock between us, I pay her for a basic session but there is no time limit, we know when the session is over, a clock doesn't have to inform us.
so we have time to catch up and chat,
we actually like walks, we have done many of those, walking our dogs.
I am a client or a john or a predator or simply a pervert, I pay her,
but other then that it is pretty normal between us, you would most likely never know,
after a long conversation some wine some home made Italian fair she created for us. which was delicious by the way
we moved to the bedroom, she teases me about my kinks my hangups but allows me my idiosyncrasies,
she has a favorite position and we finish up with that after my kinks and perversions are all excised.
you know this hobby is rather silly, rather a foolish pursuit to pay for a womens company whether you simply have coffee or drinks and supper,
or fuck her none stop for her allotted time with you, its all rather very silly. not at all anything to brag about,
rather shameful actually when you think about it,
but life is far from perfect,
I am far from perfect.
a slave to my desires still, at six decades of life.
I feel rather much a fool for my situation to be perfectly honest.
but like I said whose life is perfect,
and im quite thankful that people put up with me.
especially one sp,
yeah life is good,
but far from perfect.